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I can't seem to get my act together!! 

After saturday, the-day-that-was-created-to-break-me, everything just dissolved into quiet desolation. And I can't get my momentum back! I literally slept the whole of yesterday and I still feel shit tired. 

Oh man.. 

Just have to keep telling myself that. 

Ironic.. this is supposed to uplift me, not a platform for me to whinge more!!

So anyway.. 

I was reading about the gang's latest gathering. And it looked so fun!! I mean, even though it rained for the entire night, they still made the best out of everything and it turned out good... as always. I'd like to think we have the ability to prevail under any and every circumstance. And the guys proved that they still had their bbq skills, heh? Not bad.. fire started under 30 minutes, I heard. And in the rain too! I think there was one occasion back in the day when we had to start a fire under the rain too. 

It made realise how much I miss everyone. 

I was e-mailing qin.. and telling her that I wasn't very eager to return. I think anyone back home who hears or sees this would be like, "Deb! You wang en fu yi!! Bu xiao nu! How can you be so heartless?! What about your family.. and beloved friends who are all waiting for you to go back and catch up?! It's your home, man!"

But I was really being honest. 

I don't know why.. But the anticipation to go home isn't as strong this time. Might it be because I grew too comfortable being here? Or because I still have company here?? Maybe when everyone goes back one by one.. 

However, after reading the entries and mulling about it.. I realise I do want to be back home. To reconnect and enjoy with the people who matter so much in my life. Even though the urge to may not be as pronounced as last semester's... ultimately, I still want to be back home. 

And it's not just about the food, heh.. 

Speaking of food, I cannot wait to sink my teeth into Auntie Alma's homecooked food!! =(

I'm severely deprived of fish.. and veggies.. Auntie!! Please prepare a feast for my return!! Hahaa (So root-less, still expect to be served with love and generosity from people back home.. *Smacks self*)

Should really learn from Job.. Not that my circumstances is of any significance compared to his.. But yeah, he fell, got back up and remained faithful. It has to be an important message if God compels you to read a particular book, heh? 

Meh. 

Okay, done whining..