The song has been playing, like a broken record, over and over again in my head the past two days. And I certainly feel the part. It's almost like I'm going insane here.. Spending my days at home, getting so pasty I could literally glow/look like a dead corpse. I have all these energy which can't be dispersed anywhere else but my little pot of thoughts. And it's just bursting through the seams right now.

I know..I could work, I could exercise (my butterfly arms are so fine right now), I could start my scrapbook..I could always start cooking like I always wanted to. But it's like my body just don't want to get active! I feel sick almost everyday..All the negative energy just combing through whatever positivity there is and then picking them out and flinging them away like garden gnomes.

I'm in a rut, yes I am.

Disconnected from everthing and keeping everything inside... It's been a really long time since I felt like that. And being too overwhelmed to even think about how I should go about acting like my normal self, not so much on the outside, but inside I feel so blank.

It's freaking 5 am in the morning and I can't get to sleep..E-trial starts in 5 more hours and man, I'm stuck. Should I stay up til then or sleep now and then interrupt my sleep?

Or, I could stay up and wait for the beautiful dawn and take pictures like this!


Portrait..


...Landscape..


...and without the twilight effect..

See, I was lying in bed last morning, thinking that I should really get some sleep, then my room started to brighten. I look out my window and was so amazed with the beauty of the dawn. Tried to take some pictures while I was lying down, but none was satisfactory, as I was using my phone. I thought, what the heck, and whipped out my cam, headed outside and began snapping.

Just wish the photos captured more of the magnificent contrasting hues, though. They sort of look better on my camera

As they say, your eyes are the best cameras in the entire world.

Hate that I'm feeling all emo, but yes, I shall continue to stone my way through.