I kissed dating goodbye

I felt that it was the right thing to do.. "I'm just not ready." What a thing to say when it's more than 10 months into it. But honestly, it'd be unfair to him to carry on. With all my other commitments and my priorities...he's hardly, and very sadly of course, part of my life.

To you..

It was so hard to hear you say you're alright just to let me feel better. It was worse to see you holding back. I know it's not easy to let go of something that we once had. And that also means we had something which was beautiful and precious, that's why it's hard now.

I'm sorry too...For not being the person I was supposed to be. Like I said, I'm really not ready for committing my life to another. It's selfish..I know.. But the continuation of it will only make both of us unhappy and frustrated. I hope you don't have too hard a time explaining it to your side. You tell me not to worry..but how is it possible when..

And like what you said, thank you for all the wonderful times. Although there were valleys.. (lame example, i know) there were more mountains that surpassed the skies. =) You gave me a chapter of my life that'd be most unforgettable..

I hope you find peace and contentment...happiness too. Glad we're still friends, but we'll still need time to adjust.

Goodbye, my love

I'm fortunate to have my family with me now...There, a family portrait!!

Qin: Eh deb..squat behind leh..

Me: WHY??!!

Qin: you're part of the family too what!!

Yupp...it's time to play 'Count The Pigs In The Picture'!!

Sort of my collection of pigs..they're my dawg, my man!!! Always there for me... =)

And since we're at it..why not take more pictures of my lovely familiar, hence comforting room?

My bed...My source of comfort..without my bed, I'd be a grumpy old hag. (yup, that's me holding my bra..haha!!)

Poster wall!! Sad..so nice and colourful!! And I won't have the opportunity to make my room to teen-like and cheery anymore!! BAH!!! Ohoh..the fan is placed strategically..to block out porn.

*horrors* I bet some people would just freak out upon seeing this horrid mess..that's me for you. MESSY!! But the pic's nice leh.. Ha nar qin, you're a GOOD photographer!!

And my very very messy table...was clearing up..if not it'd be messier!!

The view from my window..wonder how long more do I have to look out and take it all the familiar details..

Rapture night

The three of us!! (don't comment on how fugly I look okay!! I tell you, I'm not in the mood to deal with this!!)

Jojo's happy!! okay, I'm saying it again, I LOVE HER SMILE!!

Failed attempt at trying to act emo... turned out all wrong!! I look like some dimwit!!

LALALA....me and Jojo..

Enjoying our ice creams..

YUM...

What would I do without them... (^add jess)

OKAY... I should be blank-o-ing myself out of this pic...

Haha..after yvonne helped us take this photo, she asked," Deborah...is your face supposed to be like that?"

Me: Yeah..I was screwing it up..

Oh wells.

Life goes on.... Oh...have to thank qin for putting up with my dramatic mood swings and for being right there from the moment I got back home. What would I be doing without you, that I don't wish to think too much about. But yeah, thanks man.. and eh!! How can you not tell me about everything between you and leon!! Okay la, kidding...do what you're comfy with..

Thanks to kelvin Gor gor too... your advice and presence were...priceless.haha.....and dinner at pepper lunch was way good..haha!! Although I don't like cooking my meals, but yeah..got beansprouts! =)

A lot of stuff happened during the lack-of-updates period.. Ocip camp(2 hours of scubbing every inch of the cafe, endurance run-1 hr 12 min 7 secs, night walk from 4am to 7am, followed by station games til the afternoon, picking red/green/brown beans/rice/barley grains from the field, 4 hours of interrupted sleep, and endless..really endless scoldings from the seniors..all to toughen us up.. well, my turn next year...muahahahaha!!!!) , touch farewell, ocip results, common test results... But don't feel like writing it all...can't remember a lot anyway..

So yeah..I'll update as often as I can!