about me
Twenty.
UWA.
Beachbum.
Kooky & sometimes OCD-ish.
Oh yes, greatest ambition is to be a mom.


I love...
God. Family. 'Corner corner'.
Beach Volleyball.
Movies under the stars.
California Maki.
Beansprouts.
Corona and Lime.
Hokey-pokey flavoured ice cream.
Daisies.


Current Music
"Tear Down the Walls"


wish list
iPod Classic.
the winds to stop and the weather to turn warm!


blow a kiss




reaching out
{♥} weiqin
{♥} joanne-jojo
{♥} jess
{♥} huijeen
{♥} yongjun
{♥} eric
{♥} linhong
{♥} JP
{♥} Joyce aka. Laopo

{♥} The Dimsum Palace
{♥}Zen aka. Lady Boss
{♥}Jade aka.hot ang mo
{♥} Boon
{♥}Cherell + Rachel
{♥}Deb Chia
{♥}Michelle
{♥}Mindy
{♥}Racho
{♥}Zihui aka. the economist

{♥} Cell

{♥} Chuan Kai
{♥} Derek
{♥} Dominic
{♥} Yanyi

{♥} Becky
{♥} Boon Kian


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end of week
Saturday, November 12, 2005

I.am.pissed.off.

No lah..kidding.. But I really was...shall I say..Frustrated? Yup.. I actually wanted to post some pictures Joanne and Jess took today. But then..! Photobucket corked up!!! And deleted my photos after I uploaded like almost 2/3 of it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So, I gave up and decided not to blog tonight.

Still, I'm here.... Mainly because it's been a long time since I last written something (not considering english paper 1). And I miss blogging..

In fact, I miss life. Life before all the mugging and mugging began. Just doing nothing and sitting on my fat arse, shaking my legs the whole day.(not literally) Meaning to say, I'm...no no..I was able to live day by day without worries, without fear and doubts.

Now, my whole being is filled with dread and negative thoughts, robbing me of my usuallly or otherwise cheerful and carefree self. Invasion of my mind has started. And I don't know how to get the occupants out.

It's not that I detest studying (gaining knowledge and what nots), and would much rather slack and be an unproductive organism. I just... Am sick of worrying so much, about what will happen next, will I get my desired grades.... Getting used to it is tough.. And I don't intend to. But, I just hope everything returns to what it used to be.

And to prove that I'm not as happy as I use to be..I'm actually starting to dream!! And having dreams, to me, means I'm stressed and too tired.. No, the dreams weren't sweet (they didn't consist of candies and chocolate fudge)...they were confusing and energy-sapping dreams!! Even though some of them ARE amusing(no, I do not giggle while I sleep..how would I know anyway right?)...I don't like having dreams!! I just wish for a dreamless night when I can really rest my mind.

Actually, I'm not that glum about everything. It feels like any other exam. With the addition of more nail-biting and palm sweating...What I mean to say is, much as I would like to feel as though this is a normal exam (so that I can calm myself down), I cannot. Simply because THE GCE 'O' LEVEL EXAMINATION IS NOT ANY ORDINARY EXAM!

It determines your future. More or less.

Anyway, there are 8 more papers to go. It's just not fair that some people have only 3! Okay fine, I'm envious of these people. But!! I shall not give up for there's only one more week to go!

One more week to my fate. (already decided because papers all in ma..)

Feeling so washed out, I've therefore decided to slack today, in preparation for running a longer distance!! (you know that chinese phrase?? Xiu xi yi xia shi yao zhou gen chang de lu) Rented movie to watch... 'Underworld'. It has a nice plot, just not original enough.. and not gory enough. Not enough of everything!! And I don't get why it's NC-16.. Just because they mention "...Fuck...!" in their dialoge doesn't make it NC-16! The scenes are so mild and not-bloody... It shouldn't even be PG!! And the ending is just so typical. So what if they got Kate Beckinsale as lead? Yes, she's got a hot bod, and they've got a hot plot. The way they directed it just did not make this a must-watch.

Well, I got my rest anyhow.. I don't mind another mediocore thriller. No, actually I do.

In case amanda* is reading this, I'm sorry we didn't accompany you to watch 'Just like Heaven'. If I knew i couldn't study at home, I'd have gone with you!!

Ah ha ha...I'm feeling so HIGH out of a sudden. But the prospect of mugging for all my not-so-favourite (what am I talking about??there can only be ONE favourite right??) subjects just brought me DOWn to a new low....

So it's official?



12:53:00 AM