my confessions

La Dee Dum

2009-11-17T19:26:00.002+08:00

I'M BACK ON THE SUNNY SHORES OF SINGAPURA!

And.... yeah.. that's about as happening as I can get. I mean.. tone-wise. Been bumming around the house the past 2 days. Am going to see how long it takes for me to get bored with spending time with me, myself and I, since everyone else is having their finals. Bah.. But it's alright.. Already have plans mapped out for next week! Yay-ness..!

The most annoying thing about staying in the house, though.. is that.. the new terrace opposite my house is now up.. and it's freaking within 10 metres. Meaning.. the side of their house is DIRECTLY facing the side of MY HOUSE! And my entire view from my balcony and room window is blocked.. Not only blocked, okay.. they can totally see through their infinite number of windows into our house.. and vice versa!

How the heck am I going to do things my way from now on (I think close friends would know what I mean) ?! Unless I shut my blinds perpetually and live in darkness.. So annoying! Why would anyone want to design something like that..?! WHY?! This is outright voyuerism okay!! Not even like.. The secrecy of the Gaze!! Rubbish.

Actually have loads and loads to update and pictures to upload.. but. Am in the too-nua-to-do-anything mode.. and will be so for the rest of the week, I reckon.

Oh oh.. thanks gang for coming down so early to surprise me on Sunday morning!! Although I sort of expected it.. it was still a nice surprise, cause I didn't see you guys when I strolled out, anyway. Weekend dinner kays!!

P.S. Heh.. qin, this shall be counted as an update!

Shiok-ness

2009-11-09T11:59:00.007+08:00

... is sleeping in for 14+ hours after a fantabulous day...

Yes.. Slept for 14 hours.. reckon is to recuperate the sleep lost during exam week. And it's super shiok!! I feel like a newborn please... especially after a shower. Sweet!

Had a ridiculously awesome day.. Lil creatures and the beach can do wonders, heh.

Anyway.. some pictures.

Can you even begin to fathom how awesome God is to create such wonders?? And it's just a simple sunset, heh.. Blown away, yet again.

Britney's Circus concert post coming up soon!! (had so much fun... saved for the people who shouted at us when we stood up to dance and the lack of big screens.. it was THE best concert yet!)

Whinge and Whine

2009-11-02T10:11:00.002+08:00

... It's time to stop!

=.. (

I can't seem to get my act together!!

After saturday, the-day-that-was-created-to-break-me, everything just dissolved into quiet desolation. And I can't get my momentum back! I literally slept the whole of yesterday and I still feel shit tired.

Oh man..

2 more days debster.. and you're done! What the heck is wrong with you girl???!?!

Just have to keep telling myself that.

Ironic.. this is supposed to uplift me, not a platform for me to whinge more!!

So anyway..

I was reading about the gang's latest gathering. And it looked so fun!! I mean, even though it rained for the entire night, they still made the best out of everything and it turned out good... as always. I'd like to think we have the ability to prevail under any and every circumstance. And the guys proved that they still had their bbq skills, heh? Not bad.. fire started under 30 minutes, I heard. And in the rain too! I think there was one occasion back in the day when we had to start a fire under the rain too.

It made realise how much I miss everyone.

I was e-mailing qin.. and telling her that I wasn't very eager to return. I think anyone back home who hears or sees this would be like, "Deb! You wang en fu yi!! Bu xiao nu! How can you be so heartless?! What about your family.. and beloved friends who are all waiting for you to go back and catch up?! It's your home, man!"

But I was really being honest.

I don't know why.. But the anticipation to go home isn't as strong this time. Might it be because I grew too comfortable being here? Or because I still have company here?? Maybe when everyone goes back one by one..

However, after reading the entries and mulling about it.. I realise I do want to be back home. To reconnect and enjoy with the people who matter so much in my life. Even though the urge to may not be as pronounced as last semester's... ultimately, I still want to be back home.

And it's not just about the food, heh..

Speaking of food, I cannot wait to sink my teeth into Auntie Alma's homecooked food!! =(

I'm severely deprived of fish.. and veggies.. Auntie!! Please prepare a feast for my return!! Hahaa (So root-less, still expect to be served with love and generosity from people back home.. *Smacks self*)

Should really learn from Job.. Not that my circumstances is of any significance compared to his.. But yeah, he fell, got back up and remained faithful. It has to be an important message if God compels you to read a particular book, heh?

Meh.

Okay, done whining..

Broken Chains

2009-10-16T09:08:00.004+08:00

It's amazing what God can do in one week.

How He can use simple things to touch us so deeply... to remember the magnitude of His everlasting love.

How He puts us in certain situations and brings difficult circumstances, so that His plan for us will come to. And ultimately, we come up tops... because it's God's plan.

Nothing is by coincidence.

And nothing is impossible, with God.

Was reading Wednesday's devotion from FCBC's page.. and it talked about remembering who we are- rightful children of God.

The devotion inserted this a little part of 'Lion King'... and it spoke so deeply into my heart.

Mustafa: Simba (son)... you have forgotten who you are and so have forgotten me...

Simba: How can I go back? I'm not who I used to be...

Mustafa: Remember who you are. You are my son, and the true King... Remember...

(It's super 'geng'.. cause 'Lion King' is like the first disney movie I'd ever watched and the first one that ever touched me so much that I was sobbing away in the darkened 'theatre' of my kindergarten class. So for God to use this and show me His love... allowed me to view in from another perspective, and yet have the exact same emotions, if not more... is powerful beyond all words.)

We are saved because of His grace and mercy. But time and again, we defy Him and go into the world with our sinful ways. We live as if we don't know our God. And time and again, He forgives us of our iniquities.

It is only when we finally realise and remember the magnitude of His love that we begin to accept it and start to live right. I yearn to grow so much closer to Him, and to stay forever close to Him. But my human flesh is weak.

That is why we need to rely on God's help. With our meagre abilities and strength... what we can achieve is pathetic. But if we turn to Him... everything will be magnified and we can find true joy and rest in Him. I see His works in me so clearly now and I can't wait for more to unravel. And now is the time to step up to that mission to do His work and bring glory to His name.

What hypocrites we'd be, if we took His grace and just live our everyday satisfied that we are saved. Is that all there is to being children of God?

I pray that everyday I grow that much closer to Him as I take up the cross daily.

Indeed, chains are broken and lives are healed... eyes are opened and Christ is revealed.

As surely as the sun will rise

You'll come to us

Certain as Your words endure

You'll come

Let Your glory fall as You respond to us

Spirit rain

Flood into our thirsty hearts again

You'll come

Business As Usual

2009-10-08T22:26:00.003+08:00

... His perfect timing

This past week has been awesome. Actually, this whole semester has been a blast. In every single sense. Sure, the workload may be heavier and assignments results may have dipped (I've struggled a whole deal to come to terms with it.. *Sigh* "Becky, you should know"), but every single day is filled with unexpected surprises.

Just when you feel like giving up on everything you've worked your arse off, He sends someone/something to supply you with so much more strength and joy.

Just imagine that.. but every single day.

I don't know how else to put it, but God works in marvelous ways... and always has. The seed of faith that He has planted, the miracles He performs, the answered prayers. Things like these takes my breath away and does something in my very core.. so monumental that all I could and can do is stand in awe.

3 more weeks before finals.

I will pull through!

The Dilemmas of a Fowl Friend in a Globalised World

2009-10-05T15:54:00.003+08:00

So some time during last week.. or two weeks ago, I came across one of the resident peacocks in the Arts building as I was strolling towards my Psyc lecture.

The sight of them have become little less than an everyday affair... but their presence and grace never fail to catch me breath. Everytime I get the chance to see them, I stop everything I'm doing (unless I'm late for a lect/tute) and just observe them.

This poor one over here, just so happens to be in my path and was subjected to 10 minutes of potential threat with a strange weapon that is my phone. I can just imagine the thoughts that were running through his mind.

Hmmm... Human.

Food.

(*Cocks his head to a side)

Where's the food? Don't they usually come with food?

No? This one has a strange object in its hand.. reaching out towards me. Coming closer!!

(*Saunters away along the railing)

Must get away. But how?

The only way is to get down on the ground.

But it's so close to me!

Should I jump down the other side, then?

It's three-storey high, though.

Hey, I'm a bird... Can't I fly?

Never tried.

I might just die.

What am I going to do?!

Or not. Because he looked pretty relaxed.. just basking in the sunlight, lost in his own thoughts. Didn't really mind me circling him, trying out different angles. He was probably thinking..

Oh, another fascinated human. I shall pose and indulge it. After all, I AM THE most beautiful creature on the face of this Earth.. (*Smirks)

Anyway... I just had a fleeting thought.

How does the peacock know who and what is a threat? Has its life been so normalised, growing up and interacting with humans that it no longer see humans as threat? As a group of people that may potentially hunt them for their gorgeous turquoise feathers, for food (a bit extreme.. but yeah)? Doesn't it feel unjustly treated that humans have assumed unoccupied land as theirs and just build whatever flippin' hell they want at the expense of another's home?

Just like how we are living in a globalised world that's constantly being bombarded by products, information, culture of another. Well, mainly the western world... How do developing countries feel about being used for their cheap labour and relatively abundant (yet rapidly depleting) raw materials and land? Do they feel glad because they've been given a piece of the 'global market pie' or do they feel threatened because their culture might possibly be diluted and lost... They do profit, yes. But more often than not, they are just earning on the terms of the 'powerhouse', and it's obviously a marginalised income.

Or do they simply not know any better? Because they've grown up in that environment when it has always been this way... Being unjustly treated and marginalised.. They just grow up thinking it's normal.. and this way of life isn't much of a problem to them. They don't know any better because they don't know.

Or is it that they don't have the agency and power to defend themselves? A people without face and voice to rise up the negotiation platform just because they are doing the more menial work and getting paid less.

For the humble peacock (or not so humble.. because everyone knows.. as proud as a peacock. heh), things might not be so detrimental. For obvious reasons... they can't be compared to people who are being discriminated or rejecting their culture for survival's sake. Life's good for UWA's peacocks.

But if they know any better and have the power to peck humans to death.. They'd realise that people are invading their habitat for the sake of their own development.. and just letting a select group of peacocks to live out of obligation. Just so they can say that they've done their part in helping others and assimilating them into the new world.

I think we all need to find a balance. How far are we going to allow our identity to be washed-out before we lose it completely? How are we going to preserve it? In some cases, even to the point of fighting the invading forces to resist change, in order to prevent the introduction of a whole host of social and economic issues.

I suppose we could all sit on the fence.

For us, (disgustingly) privileged people living in places where freedom is a personal right, it is easy to do. But is that really how we want to live out our lives? As selfish capitalists, scrambling after the cheapest resources just so we can produce and cater to the rich (who might possibly be ourselves!)? Subjecting the voiceless and powerless to 'OUR' way of life.. just because we think it is the best way? Just because our narrow minds can only imagine one civilised way to live?

Is homogeneity the only way to go?

I say give the peacocks the right to choose. Only then, can we say we genuinely want what is best for them.

** I am not referring developing nations and marginalised individuals as peacocks.. just using them as analogies.

On a lighter note..

Good news abounds! So many lives that are about to be blessed so infinitely!! I just love it when people share good news. Their happiness just burst out of them like a ray of hope and infect you for days. Especially the creation of new life and relationships!!

Sigh.. happy happy... so happy for you guys.

(*beams)

Swordfish Hotkiss Night

2009-09-28T19:17:00.021+08:00

Breathing to the beat

So last Sunday was PARKLIFE.

One word.

Sublime.

As a whole, it was an awesome experience. You know, the line-up was great, a whole slew of DJs and fab bands. Arts vs Science, Mstrkrft, La Roux (although... it is to be mentioned that she's not very good live), Metric.. so much more.

But what really made it sublime (as mentioned above) was Empire of the Sun.

Period.

And as the act that ended off our night... they were absolutely perfect.

A perfect finish for THE perfect day. I mean that in every sense. The weather was awesome... we could wear just one layer! (can't say that about today's weather, though.. it sucks! And I thought spring was here after a bout of glorious sunshine last weekend)

So anyway..

Back to PARKLIFE.

This was before everyone started coming in.. Hot Samba band.. plus dancers.

Where should we go?

Don't care, take picture first.

The Water Stage.

Where we spend most of our time at.

The Fire Stage.

It's the only stage that's enclosed and tented.. Have no idea why that is. Was it supposed to make the attendees feel like they were trapped in a burning building? Because it most certainly did!

The Air Stage.

Art vs Science!!

"Hey! Ho! Use your flippers to get down!"

There were also the Earth Stage and Wood Stage, which we didn't manage to get pictures of.

21st century hippies.

Then after Art vs Science, as there wasn't any acts we wanted to see.. mostly just DJs.. we went to laze and bask in the abundant beams of sunrays... (it's like we were coming out of our caves after a long period of hibernation)

Hmm... what shall we do now?

Don't look at me.. I just want to bum around.

Meh... This sucks.

Let's....

Take a picture!

Drink!

Make merry!

Drink some more!

Check out other people!

Take more pictures!

I reckon...

... that Pure Blond..

Is the way to go!

Pure Blond, your friendly beverage.

With Pure Blond, life is a song!

Who's that??

Don't care! Just dance with me!

Yeah! (Sarah and Jo are the cutest... they really are)

Apparently, this is DJ Shazam.. Prepping us up before Little Boots makes her debut appearance in Perth.

Heh.. Tie-dye, is the way to go!

And she appears!

I'm gonna take you out tonight

I'm gonna make you feel alright...

... No I don't have a penny

But I'll show you a real good time~

Dusk set in and it was time for another break.

Snack and chat!

Batman and Robin?

I think Metronomy was playing at this time.. and it was PACKED! Really looks like everyone was on fire... as the stage is aptly named. Meh, missed Lady Sovereign because it was just too packed. No way we were squeezing into the mass of sweaty bodies.

So back at the Water Stage we ended. An hour before the final act comes on. (yes, I was that 'kiasu')

Kaskade working the growing crowd.

And all hell broke loose when EOTS came on stage.

Tried to snap a few...

Luke Steele (lead singer) blocked by random hand in the air.

Background not being cooperative.

A could-have-been-perfect-if-not-for-the-hand-holding-beer shot. ( I rather like this shot.. sort of encapsulates all the excitement and buzz that EOTS was bringing. But darn it!)

And finally!

Swordfish.
Hotkiss.
Night!

... One cool mohawk the drummer is working..

And then.. everyone went mad when they performed 'Walking on a Dream'.

Cheers!

That's all for my extraordinary Sunday.

I remember I blogged about heart-shaped bruises.. one of my more.. subdued and extreme abstract of my strain of senseless musings.

And what do you know???

I actually have a tangible heart-shaped bruise!

See??

How cool is that?

And I don't even know how I got it!

Oh, how I wish I could keep it for eternity.

But now... All I have for eternity is REGRET if I don't get my ass off this chair, out of my room and to the library!

Seriously cannot get anything done in my room. Essays and one more big project to go. Plus finals in 4 weeks. I'm just going to have to pull through these few arduous weeks and then... well, think that I'd pretty much be exhausted by the end of it all.. but heck, I have 3 months to enjoy it back home!

Keep me in your prayers, y'all!

(You'll be in mine too! And that's not a prerequisite.. erm.. nevermind, I shall stop here.)

An Alternate Disney

2009-09-23T23:04:00.010+08:00

Was reading Pink yesterday and came across this few, very astounding, awesome depiction of what Disney would look like if Marvel unleash their band of artistes on their parent company.

Ever since the surprise acquisition of Marvel (not sure about this... it may be a consensual merger), people have been voicing out their concerns about how Disney is going to... Disney-fy (can't think of any words that are more suitable)... legendary comic characters and others to come.

But what if it's the other way round?

What if Marvel were given the autonomy (though, I would expect it to be limited) to reinvent Disney's characters??

In particular, the Princesses! Most drawn and portrayed as dainty, 24-inch waisted, bouncy curls (in most) and boobies (heh) women, figures who are trying to break out of their oppressive circumstances.

If the princesses have an alter-ego, I'd say these pictures captured their essence to the tee!

The Animalist (in every sense)

Nala

The Psycho

Alice

(Mastermind of the other dimension, which is designed to scare children in their dreams)

The out-of-this-world Ragdoll

Cinderella

The innocent zombie

Aurora

The Emo

Belle

(whose other alter-ego is the beast.. doesn't it seem that way?? Like how he is rising behind her?)

The bring-anything-on Evil Nemesis

Jasmine

(imagine Darth ~~More~~ Maul... except as a female)

The Sadist

Snow White

(the way she put every one of the dwarves on leash just freaks me out! And have you seen the seven pairs of evil eye-beams?!)

The Evil Bitch

Ariel

(hahaha!!! Mechanical fork-arm!)

The Ninja

Jane

(who saves the poor and helpless from attacks.. then rips off the skins and wears them.. yeesh..)

The Gungho Warrior

Mulan

(she can never die because she's possessed by a very evil and powerful spirit)

AND....

MY FAVORITE

The Fighter

Pocahontas

(You can almost hear Tyra going, "Smile with your eyes, gurrl! FIEEEERRCE!")

Courtesy of graphic designer/artist- Jeffrey Thomas

This is a Story...

2009-09-19T11:09:00.004+08:00

.. about Boy Meets Girl

So yesterday was the day when we finally had the complete look of (500)days of Summer.

(thanks to Haz, this was the movie that we were looking forward for about two months now!)

Awesome awesome movie.

It is very different, in terms of direction and shots, from the conventional Hollywood Rom-Com genre. But the same charm and wit remains. I guess it's universal, and it really make the piece work. Joseph Gordon-Levitt and Zooey Deschanel's immersion into their role were genuine and conceivable. The tangibility of their chemistry just pushed the film into a whole new realm.

Sure, it takes some getting used to. With the director's choice of emphasizing the reality of love and little things like the palpable silence and subdued tones of most part of the movie, even when they were really happy, this piece won't really come across as what one would call groundbreaking or even watchable.. (friend's friend advised him not to watch it! Oh, the blasphemy!)

But, I really thought that it was so good because of the overall honesty and the brutality of real life.

If I have one critique, it would be that it wasn't morbid and brutal enough.. Cause in a way, the film ended in a happy-sort-of-way.

Yes, I'm sadistic like that. But I guess that's cinematography.. You can't please everyone.. and the message that is intended to be put out there shouldn't be one of despair and misery.

Anyway.. I strongly urge everyone to watch it! It's a classic chill-out flick and serves up good laughs too.

Oh yes.. the music is awesome too. No question about that.

PINK!

2009-09-19T09:34:00.008+08:00

... is the new 22nd

As promised, photos of Zee's PINK 22nd.

It was a huge success, I would say. But of course.. it was obvious that something was planned, as any birthday celebration in trinity. So I guess he was expecting something.

For his birthday surprise, we decided that it was time for him to face his greatest fear. PINK! In the process of planning the surprise, we hope to rid him of this stronghold by flooding him with waves of pink.

I reckon, though, this is one awesome birthday that he will NEVER forget (try as he might) for the rest of his life. Right, Zee?

His PINK present from the Southern Girls..

Please pardon the obscenity.

All in good fun, right?

Got to the TV room like an hour before to decorate it in pretty pink and black ballons and paper hearts!

And when everyone has arrived and written in his card... what do we do?

... Watch TV..

And while watching TV..

He's coming! His coming!!

Yes, all one captured and blindfolded poor soul.. who has no idea how 'bad' he's going to have it.

Argh! Pink!! Get 'em away from me!

(He's deathly allergic to anything pink)

Why KJ had to kneel in front of him while presenting the birthday cake, I have no idea.

What did you guys get me??

Converse high tops!

(the first of many wardrobe changes to come. We're starting from bottom up)

One with Pete.. our friendly security guard

(And with the boobies that we forced him to put on.. )

Christine... (Whines Zee) Why you let them torture me like that??

Hoho.. You think that's all? There's more to come, buddy! (Sniggers Christine)

Oh, the joy that Zee's agony brought.

... Uh oh, Haz's acting up!

What's Zee.. What's Zee?!

Attack!!!

Since we're all girls and can't possibly have the strength to Taupok him.. I think the next best alternative is to harass him with a innumerable amount of PINK ballons.

WHY..?! WHY???!!?

Okay, let's call it a night. I'll be good and take a nice picture.

Poor Zee..

Noe trying to be the innocent party.

Part 3!

... Flooding his room with PINK!

Yeesh!

(He reluctantly jumped into the pile after much threatening)

Okay.. okay.. I resign to my fate.

And one for the Southern Sevens!

Peace!

I bet he must be desensitized by the end of the night. Either that, or we reinforced his pinkaphobia.

Heh.

Hope you had a good one!

Yippee!!!

2009-09-14T00:58:00.004+08:00

I'VE FINALLY COMPLETED MY PSYC LAB REPORT!

After a grueling week of research, hemming and hawing, endless hours sitting in front of Mackie, watching the cursor blink repetitively..

IT'S FINALLY DONE!

I do hope that I get a good mark for it. Man.. my entire mid-sem break was devoted to it! Kay la, that's a huge overstatement.

As mommy would say, "Haven't finish still can go out and play???"

But I'm extremely glad that I went out last night to watch Lisa Mitchell LIVE! She was fab awesome, please. So is her accompaniment guitarist.. Heh.. the cutest junkie-look-a-like I've ever set eyes upon!

Next up, Oh Mercy. Haz, We've got to go! (Although you've already claimed him as yours. I'm just going for the music, don't worry. So don't scratch my eyes out!)

Photos up soon. (I hope)

Decisions, decisions...

2009-09-11T01:08:00.004+08:00

*Big sigh*

It just struck me.. how important some decisions are. They literally make or break you.

Oh, it's an epiphany, alright. But not a good one.

Had a really good talk with Clar and Haz on separate issues..

We weighed the pros and cons. Viewed the problem from multiple sides. Put ourselves in others' shoes. Came up with alternative solutions. Then went back to weighing the pros and cons.. and the cycle repeats itself.

I wouldn't go so far as to say that I'm suffering from quarter-life crisis. (I'm still sane, unlike a certain Dad I know who's going through mid-life crisis. Heh, joking la) It's more of.. what am I going to do with my life? Which path should I take? How are relationships going to play out if I do this or that?

I guess everyone goes through this phase.

Hmm.. but I can (and should) rest assure and have peace in my very bones.. (not only in my heart) that everything will turn out just as God intended. Because He has a plan for me. Yups.. Even the minor little details that are bugging me know.. it will all be good tomorrow.

Tsk.. I reckon that listening to James Horner (it has been loping for about 3 hours now) doesn't really help with the 'emo' state that I'm in. Titanic is too sad!

For now..

Should I snack on my favourite shortbread, while I continue to trough through my lab report.. or should I stick to my diet plan? (which is not going well at all..)

Hmm... Decisions, decisions...

On the Weekends

2009-09-10T14:50:00.025+08:00

we try to get our share of excitement and fresh air

(by The Perishers. one of my all-time fave song!)

Yes, I'm back to give a little update of happenings down under.

Saturday

Lancelin Dunes (yes, again) and Ciao Italia (never will I get sick of this place)

So Ben (Clar's bf) came over for a week and we decided that it is our duty to bring him around the beautiful land that is WA.

Woke up at the crack of dawn (10am isn't exactly crack.. but when it's study break and you have all the time to sleep in.. it is damn early) to head out for car rental and breakky.

As you can see, we were not what you would call happy.

But a perfect day awaits..
Driver. Haha.. look at her sweater. We're on a road trip to Tijuana! I wish...

We're dressed in inverted colours!

Pure coincidence, I might add.

And we've reached!

Not as fun as the previous time.. cause we couldn't find a suitable dune that's high enough. Almost all the high ones were taken by notorcross racers who were doing flips and stunts.. No way in hell were we going to sandboard amongst them.

But anyhoo.. had a great time trying to stand-board. Not so much landing on our asses.

Cool, no?

Coolest!

Everyone, minus Huiren, the photog.

After an hour's drive, it was back for dinner!

As usual, we waited for an hour before getting our seats and another 20 mins before we got our food! If you can not already tell from how preciously awesome the food at Ciao is (from how long we were willing to wait, despite standing in the cold outside.. and starving too!).. I have to tell you..

... it's freaking awesome.

And we all dug in..

Please ignore the background and focus your attention, instead, on the foreground where the best 'tiramisu' is depicted. It's the best 'tiramisu' I've ever tasted and will ever eat, thank you very much.

We looked pissed because Ben just said something damn lame.. and we were giving the look. But actually inside, we were all secretly laughing our heads off. Might I add.. Ben is one lame individual.. Seriously, this past week, we have been reduced to mere ice cubes, because he's just so lame! Clar, kudos to you for tahan-ing him for 2 years.. Heh

(Aye, but he's a nice guy la.. we all know that. Adds fun and laughter, peace and joy.. Clar, you got yourself a good man there.. =) )

Oh yes, on our way back from Lancelin, we saw this FULL rainbow!! From end to end leh! But it's a pity we couldn't get a photo of the entire rainbow. In the car, you see.

That's the best I could get.

And so vivid too! All seven colours were visible...

A perfect sight to the end of a perfect day.

Sunday

Swan Valley and Little Caesar's

Since we were too lazy to drive to Margaret River, Swan Valley was the next best thing.

But we had a little hiccup.

We couldn't find a place to have lunch!

See, it was Fathers' day on Sunday.. and everywhere was booked out! We scouted almost every restaurant before Lily of the Valley (yes, that's the name of the restaurant.. how cool is that!) opened up a table for us.

Lily of the Valley had an open garden concept, so basically, we were just sitting out in this enormous garden, enjoying the spring blooms and delish food!

Look how pretty!

This is just the entrance of the garden.

We just couldn't resist taking a ridiculous amount of pictures..

Joseph Gordon-Levitt guitar pose

Ballerina (eh.. not bad for non-dancers kay!) pose

And then individual shots.

Cool right!! Look like a sports ad for running shoes!

HAHAHAHA!!!!! Trying to imitate Haz but EPIC FAIL! Oh my tian.. look at his face! We all couldn't stop laughing.

Yes.. don't we all wish we could jump and bend like this??

Then the food arrived.

Our first thought when we reached the restaurant was.. "Don't you just want to get married here??"

It was the perfect set up.. spring is here, all the pretty flowers has bloomed.. perfect weather, adorable lawn furniture and even an aisle down the guest house!

(more pictures on FB)

Oh yes, food is awesome too. The chicken crepe with wild mushrooms and melted cheese.. and butter prawns!

And they had a cage of parrot-kids (is this how you spell)! Okay la.. only got two. But on the day of the wedding, one could open up the cage (with more of 'em little cute things) and release the nice birdies just as the bride is making her way down the aisle!!

AWWWWWW!!!!!

The cutest picture of them both!

.. Aww??

Haha.. trying to imitate the cute couple. But, I've to say, this is rather cute too!

The rest of the day was spend driving to wineries, Mondo Nougat and Magaret River's Chocolate Factory..

I spent so much there, it's not even funny. Bah..

After that, it was back to Munduring for Little Caesar's. Italian pizza, again! But it was good food, so I shan't complain.

5 main pizzas and 2 dessert pizzas. So we all had 7 slices of pizza!

Maybe it's just me. I didn't really fancy the dessert pizza that much, too sweet and too weird! I think it is innovative of them to come up with dessert pizza (literally chocolate on the pizza base.. so it's like eating brownie on a pizza base), but some things should just be kept as it is.

Haz trying to act couple-y with Chin!

And that's our weekend. What an awesome way to start a study break.

(bah.. but now it's back to assignments and lab reports!)

Theme Dinner

Scream bloody murder! A mystery bloody murder...

So two wednesday ago, we had our theme dinner. And it was fun fun fun!

And... scary too.

Haz was the psychotic whore-hater/murderer..

.. I was the whore.. ('nuff said.. eh, but not literally, hor!)

Noe Zin the forensic scientist.

Funnily enough, having a beer with my murderer.

(BABY!!! I was wearing your christmas present for me!! *beams beams*)

Hmm.. is there really a need to decipher who the murderer is?

You want a piece of me??

You bet I do! Come here, skank!

Christine (the detective)

I spot a clue!

What's this??

The psycho pleading innocent and Daphne is actually the real murderer??

(haha.. clar poses as a really good question mark! And so strategically placed too!)

Spirit fingers!

Or is the murdered the real murderer??

... Highly unlikely.

So anyway, we won best-dressed, as a table.

Well deserved. Heh..

But we went all out, man, covered ourselves in 'blood' and frizzed our hair. Of course we deserved it! =)

Our prize??

Cluedo in Chocolate!

One with the backdrop.

So who IS the murderer??

Daffy?

I guess we'll just have to accept that this murder will remain a mystery!

(Oh yes, Huiren was the whore's mom.. The mourner.)

HA! Innocent boy.

(christine looks like she's about to burn zee to death.. if only there was a ray of sunlight)

Was great fun..

We retired to the awesome-ness that is 'Scream' franchise.

My favourite horror/thriller of all time. Will never get sick of it! But turns out, only Haz and Daffy likes 'em as much as I do.

Whelps.

That was most of the more happenings of my recent happenings. OH yes, there's still Zee's PINK 22nd. Aye, next time la.

**Note to self: This is your 200th post!! (tsk tsk.. after, what, 6 years?!)

Caffeine-induced Hunger Pangs and the Insatiable Thirst for Mags

2009-08-25T01:20:00.005+08:00

Meh....

I don't know why, but everytime I have a cuppa long black, I'll start to have these serious hunger pangs barely 30 minutes after I finished it! And I usually drink after my meal, so being hungry after a meal does not make sense. Trust me, I'm trained by my dad to eat til my stomach is close to bursting and is literally incapable of taking in any more food. So I'm not one of those girls, who has a stick of carrot and celery each.. maybe some green peas and lettuce and call that a meal. I live to eat.

So anyway, I don't know why I always feel hungry after a cuppa. And it's always.

Speaking of caffeine, I realise that it does not have any effect on me at all. In the afternoon, I'm still able to nap after a cup during breakky. I do know for a fact that it is all psychological, on my part, at least. That being said, I still feel more energetic on days when I have a cup in the morning. Self-delusions, I reckon.

As for my purchases of mags. I have 3 words.

HAVE. NO. SELF-RESTRAIN.

Completely none. Zilch. As long as I walk into a news-agency or a bookstore, that's it. It don't matter that the new issue of 'Time' isn't out yet. I'll move on to the likes of 'Vanity Fair', 'Vogue', or 'Elle'. Even 'Cleo', which I'm beginning to find very meaningless. Like their articles are becoming really superficial. Maybe it has always been, and I'm only discovering now.

I think my lack of restrain is a hide my longing for 'National Geographic' and 'First' (which has stopped publication! WHY WHY WHY?!). I try to purchase other stuff to fill this void in my life. Someone please come visit me so I can have my Nat Geog.. Or mommy, you just send them to me la. Heh...

There is no point in this entry, except to illustrate my musings. Relatable or not, well.. I can't help being queer.

So the flu gets the last laugh

2009-08-21T15:17:00.002+08:00

I guess when it's the first illness in years, it has got to be a big one. You know like how every Olympics opening ceremony has to top the last one? Okay, bad analogy, but you get my drift.

While 'The Flu' was happily ticking my friends off its heinous weaklings-who-have-succumbed-to-me checklist, I was thinking to myself, "I don't think I'll ever fall ill. I mean, I'm strong.. I have a great immunity system. I eat 3 portions of fruits daily, for goodness' sake!"

And what do you know?

(At this point in time, I'm imagining a disgusting looking bug sitting in a leather chair, stunned by my retort. And is furiously issuing the permit for his army of germs to infect me asap)

What started as an innocent sorethroat, turned out to be a full-blown, week-long (still going strong), irritable flu! Complete with fever, cough and constant phlegm. I do wonder, though, why my phlegm is so thick. And it really feels weird to be sick. Never felt so terrible.

Although, I have to add that a night staying up to finish a report.. and lying in James Oval at 2am in shorts, for the sake of catching the meteor shower, certainly increase my chance of falling ill.

I WILL FIGHT YOU, FLU-BUG!

I read in 'Time', that there is no basis for losing weight through exercising. Meaning to say that, exercising don't make you lose weight. In fact, it might add on more pounds! Imagine the mayhem it caused in the corridor. (mind you, we girls visit the gym religiously! Yes, we're all in it to lose the fats that we've gained since coming to Perth)

The article states that it is not how much you exercise.. it WHAT YOU EAT!

I have nothing to say, for I have been deceived.

I think our generation have the misconception that exercising equals burning calories equals losing weight. Because it is a recent phenomenon, which is technically true. But what really happens, very often, after we exercise, we tend to feel famish and begin to fill our body with sugar that we've just lost. If not, it is the case of self-reward, whereby we grab the nearest chocolate bar or bag of chips to reward ourselves. You know, pat on the back for willing ourselves through the grueling workout.

The result is we not only not lose weight, but gain more! Because, you know.. a 30 minutes run is just what.. about 400 calories? And that's just a freaking blueberry muffin! Turns out, the perception that exercising more will turn fat into muscle, which will burn more fat.. is... Very true. But! Our resting body (with muscles built from the exercise) only burns about 3 calories/kg of muscle in a day! Can you calculate the amount of muscles that your body has got to build to burn sufficient calories so that you won't gain more weight, despite the constant intake of food?!

On the other hand, who's to say that this article contains the absolute truth. And even if I can't lose weight through exercising (then how to lose?!), I feel more relaxed and contented after a a run along Mounts Bay.. or a game of touch. And I reckon that my heart definitely benefit from the workout.

But, I guess the only way now is less bubble tea and late night snacks! And no more seconds for meals!

Keep fit, y'all!

P.S. (to babyjeen) Hey baby!! Did you receive my snail-mail letter??? Or did it get lost in transit?? I was totally beaming when I got your letter, as usual. Happy for your brother and his wife! Tell them I said, "CONGRATULATIONS!" Heh.

They call me Marley, They call me Lian

2009-08-05T18:40:00.003+08:00

That's not my name.. That's not my name~

(Well, they are, to a certain extent)

So, the start of a whole new semester.

New beginnings... should be kicked off with a bang. And the night 'bang-ed', alright.

Christmas in July

pseudo commencement dinner for sem 2

(Photos not in chronological order.. cause I can't be bothered to arrange them! Blogger's being a bitch)

Was awesome fun, I reckon. Nothing out of the ordinary.. but it was the dressing up, the company and good fun that made it remarkable. And of course the after-party. There's always the after-party to end the night with a blast.

Why so solemn? Because we were terribly hungry.

... And maybe it's because Zee spotted his all-time nemesis Cheah Hui Ren (aka. birthday girl)

KJ: YAA..

(everyone at the table sniggers and people from neighbouring tables turn to stare)

Yup, we pulled out of the yum-sheng toast last minute.

and then we got bored, waiting for more speeches..

Classic! So cute, the both of them.

Gotta love our colour combination. Southern Sevens (minus Haz.. tsk.. and Cheah who was taking this picture.. and half-sister Zee). I think it's time for a family portrait, y'all!

After a different.. unique.. let's just leave it as a non-standard grace, it was time for dinner. Check out the mega-fresh prawns and tender pink turkey steak!

One with Head of college- Santa Shearer

... One for the girls

... and one for the guys!

Ah Lian and Ah Beng.

Happy now? Maybe it was the wine. Yes, alcohol has quite the effect on Zee. (more to be revealed later. I mean that in every sense...)

Then it was time for the highlight of the night- Cheah's (actually I call her Huiren.. But easier to type Cheah.. Clarissa, you're nick for her is rubbing off me too!) birthday surprise!

While everyone was still having dinner, Zee and Christine stealthily slipped off to get the cake and her presents. And returned, unbeknownst to the entire dining-hall-ful of residents.. promptly, our table started the birthday song and ended with the entire hall following suit. She was, of course, caught off-guard and very surprised! Mission accomplished.

I wish...
... I blow..

... I shake.. What can it be? Could it be my wish come true???

... I love my friends!

One more of the pretty cupcakes.

My real present! Don't you try to run away from me, Marley!

That's a good doggie. Now sit!

Heh. The little joys in life.

With the lovely Anni. How would we have survived without you???

Then, time for caroling.

When Clarissa disapparated into thin air. See that yellow blur on the far left. Yeah, nothing more than a wisp of yellow dust, she had become.

And with miraculous powers, she's back! And camera-ready. Tsk tsk.. Probably gone to powder her nose.

With Esther and Feng. One half of F.A.Y.E.

Wonked-eye alert!

Only Esther succeed doing the cross-eye.

Whaley says Bye! (for now)

The Basement

The after-party.

Primed and freshened, we hastened out into the cold for The Basement. Wanted to get there early, so won't have to queue up. But girls being girls.. we took way longer than intended.

I wonder.. why is almost everyone slanting to their left? Is it a girl thing?

The first thing after we got our drinks...

KJ decides to cheat on me and 'gay' with Zee. Meh. By all means, man.

You go, girl! Daphne's the hot secretary of the night.

Tried a variety of games.. but the game of the night would definitely, hands-down be CONCENTRATION! Yes, we kicked up such a ruckus that people all around joined in out of curiousity. I think we went through 16 jugs of beer, because we couldn't get enough of it!

And everytime someone loses, we all sang, "Here's (insert name).. blah blah blah (don't remember this part).. And he/she drinks and he/she smokes and he/she _ _ _ _ _ all the blokes. (insert name)!"

Zee and Clar may look all happy and fine now.

But after a few bouts of CONCENTRATION,

Lol-worthy! (no la, she wasn't doing anything funny.. just being happy, like a clam. Except, an open clam.

And Zee! This one will stick with you for all eternity! It was a song which commanded all guys in the club to strip down to their bare essentials...

Lo and behold, Zee joined in! Picture is censored for everyone's safety. And sanity.

Foreground and background. Cause and effect.

A very uncomfortable Zee, and a very hot Daffy. 3 happy bunnies in between.

I don't like the taste of beer!

Twas, it was time to head back. Cannot believe have to have a 9am tute scheduled the next morning. Major Meh! But had plenty fun when we got back. Kudos to Zee and Clar, truly the stars of the night, who held their liquor. The aftermath was.. a thing to reminisce about, most definitely. The night will stay with us for as long as the Southern Sevens still meet up!

Peace out!

Lancelin Dunes

Yes, as promised, pictures from the 1st day back in Perth. As I said, glad I bumped into them and followed. Had a really great day.

On our 2 hour drive up north.

We turned into this 40km stretch, and sped all the way, trying to reach there as fast as we could. But when we reached the end, we found out that it was the wrong turn! BAH! So we had to U-TURN back where we came from.

Along that stretch, though, we enjoyed the blue skies and green grass.. and cows. Lots and lots of cows.

*Niap!

Look at how excited Car is, picking up the black cow. Heh...

We finally arrived.

We're that tiny compared to the dunes.

Let's zoom in up close...

Liang learning how to pose pretty.

Waxing the boards before we surf down.. for minimum friction and maximum speed!

YiHui the monster penguin!

Our sand-peppered fries.

That was how strong the gusts of winds were. Even with the box closed.. Sand still penetrated in.

More pictures...

Ended the perfect day with Tiamo's. Awesome italian food man. But Ciao will forever have a special and irreplaceable spot in my heart.

Righto. The rest of the pictures are up on FB..

All in all.. I'm having a great time back in Perth. Even though it was hard to leave beloved friends and family behind. There's a 'family' I can count on here. Being a pet of the corridor has its privileges.

Meow. (I'm a dog in a cat's body that has sheep wool)

What you talking?

2009-08-04T22:01:00.002+08:00

Many a times, I find myself stuck. Unable to go forward with what I have established and unable to erase the things I have said. I just can't get my point forward. Not short and succinct enough for people to remain attentive and responsive to my opinions.

Maybe my real problem is not being slow. Maybe it is the inability to express myself in the way I intended. And through time and conditioning, I begin to think (too long, I reckon) before I say or act. And, that is, inadvertently perceived as being slow or ditzy.

I can't help but wonder if this trait (I shall not see it as a handicap or anything negative, for that matter. Shall call it my little problem.) has been a part of me since I was young. I should think so, but it is only now that my mind explored the possibility that I had always had difficulty in expressing myself.

In retrospect, I would say that I was a quiet and anti-social child. Quite often eccentric and happily lonesome. I daydreamt loads.. and thought up of many many stories and scenarios, which I would then reenact. Taking on the multiple roles and filing myself with all the different thoughts that must be running through the characters' mind at that particular point in time. That was how I spent my time playing. Sometimes stories with Barbie dolls, other times, any other items I can get my hands on.

As I said, I was anti-social.. But fine with that too. I had a lot going in between my ears, but I never thought that they needed an outlet. Neither did I think it was important to do so. I simply contained everything within me, and let myself loose in the little wondrous world, that is 'DebbieLand'.

I remember, Daddy would always chide me for daydreaming.. and urging me to strive for a sense of urgency. I imagine his frustration then to be the exact emotions eluded by friends now. It must have taken, or still has to be, plenty patience to communicate with me. A good example would be that verbal messages have to repeated at least twice. Because I would not have heard it, or would not have understood the first time round. If not, my reply wouldn't have been effectively transmitted, my true perspective compromised, due to my little problem.

In primary one, a teacher once remarked in the report book, "Deborah is a hardworking and helpful girl. However, she is slow in understanding. Her results can be improved."

That teacher remains as one of my much beloved mentors. Mrs Cheong. But her words had a lasting impact on me. Obviously. I guess, I subconsciously know that I am slower than others.. But never really thought much about it.

Then in secondary school, Mrs Lee would remark that I could write, but my narratives would always be rife with expression errors. The same could be assumed for my JC years.

What prompted me to think about the matter was yesterday's anthropology tute. After I had asked a question, one to seek meaning to an economic term, there was this utterly awkward silence. Nobody understood what I had just asked.

Fortunately, one of my tute-mates, who could transcend into my spectrum of frequency, understood me and reconstructed my question on my behalf. But that was after the silence has sank into the depths of the pores of the concrete flooring, and everyone had reached to point whereby they're thinking in their head, "What is this chick talking about?!"

I'm not really bothered about how others think of me. Well, I am for my friends. Not so much bothered, but apologetic, about how many obstacles they have to overcome to talk to me. I'm bothered, more so, with the fact that I have improved little and could possibly be getting worse! Maybe now that I realise my slowness is because of my inability to put myself across clearly, I could start working on it and be more socially relatable and relevant now.

That is not to say that I'm going to change myself to conform to the demands of society and group behaviour. I'm simply better-ing myself in the course of my life. I'd change my slow-ness up a little, but it'd always be there. It's the ditzy part of me after all.

P.S. Oh yes, my dear readers (who, I reckon, is just a minimal few... namely qin, jo and baby, who can't wait! heh) I'm going to update about stuff soon. Was procrastinating about uploading the pictures (well, because I can't have an update post without plenty pictures.. I just can't). And the internet is way slow. Still have not finished uploading until now. I started at 7. Shall leave it for tomorrow.

An assful of sand

2009-07-18T15:16:00.002+08:00

Back in Perth and finally online.

I think the lack of sleep (due to an irritant sitting in front of me who leaned back all the way and who couldn't stop fidgeting) induced me into high-ness. And not thinking straight.

Bumped into Yihui and Liang Sheng.. who were bring Carissa around in the morning at Westpac (of all places..). This chance encounter would deffo be called a blessing in disguise. Ended up going along with them for the rest of day. The 2 hours drive did not disappoint and I thoroughly enjoyed myself at the dunes, then Tiamo for good chilli mussels and pasta. See, if not for them, I would have been in my room moping and pining for home while I unpack my stuff and misery.

I did have to pay for it this morning. Worse than a hangover (not that I would know how one feels like). Probably due to the fact that the last time I slept was wednesday night. And Zee just have to bang on my door just cause he's back! Anyway, had a good lunch and now I'm back in my room resting before service. This is the life.

What the heck, the last weekend before school starts should be enjoyed.

OH AM GEE!

2009-06-10T01:00:00.003+08:00

BRITNEY IS COMING TO PERTH!!!!!!!!!!!

This is the best news heard on a birthday ever!! Who wants to go with me?! Next sem next sem.. Shat, is it going to be during exams? nov 6..

It's right in the middle of exams! Please don't let me get saturday paper.. please don't let me get saturday paper!

Was a different birthday this year. I quite like it.. just a quiet day with me myself and I. Glad SCPC is over now. Thank you all for all the birthday wishes and encouragement for the morning paper. Haz! Thanks for convincing me to take the bus! Heh, if not would have rushed like mad.

Off to bed.

Grinning

2009-06-08T16:13:00.004+08:00

... like an idiot~ *Beams Beams*

Well, what did I find when I went down for a toilet break just 5 minutes ago?

In my pigeon hole, a brown A5 envelope with my name splayed across! With a teeny inscription on the envelope flap- Blk ___ Edgefield Plains ... Singapore

I picked it up with an incredulous stare.. then a widespread grin, that's still on as I type.

As I raced up, back to the resource room, an insatiable joy shoot through my entire being. I still couldn't put the grin away. And when I carefully sliced the envelope open to find a wonderfully lovely handmade card, plus an aww-so-sweet message, the grin got wider still.

Really unexpected!

Thanks, love.. really made my day. Just when I thought I couldn't possibly carry on with any more analysis of Donnie Darko, The Reader, Running in the Family.. (Stupid, but becoming increasingly interesting as I revise for tomorrow) Minority Report, this boost of encouragement and delight just snap me back into perspective.

Cannot cannot wait for to spend my break at Tioman with the gang! Especially my babyjeen! (JY, she's mine for 3 days/2 nights!) Haha.. Shall stop now lest all of you start barfing.

Also had an absolutely awesome time celebrating with the Southern Sevens on Saturday at Kido. Japanese cruisine! So long since I last had sashimi! (cannot believe I'm the only one who like tuna sashimi..)

It was a lovely surprise, I must add. I did suspect a tad, if the dinner was to celebrate my 20th. But I put that thought out when Noe implied that it was the celebrate the start of exams, a break from all the studies this past week. And not until huiren said,"Since it's your birthday, I shall not call you slow!" that I realized! Heh..

I really enjoyed myself. Thanks guys! You all made living in Perth so much more colourful and enjoyable. (*thinks back to mid-sem period, when a lil bit of homesickness made its way into my otherwise indifferent mind) And glad we've already started to make plans to meet up and treat our bellies to local delicacies!

Will post pictures up after tomorrow's paper. Hope that goes well. It's that sort of feeling I'm having now. Like, I can't do much about it anymore.. because have went through umpteen times, but still afraid that there's more to be covered.

Meh.

Come Now, my Friends!

2009-06-04T22:42:00.009+08:00

I feel strangely at peace and very relaxed, just a day before the first paper.

Hmm, I wonder why that is? Well, I know exactly why. And I thank everyone for praying! Heh..

Revision has been going surprising well, I must add. It's hard to believe that I have that much focus. Feels like 'A's all over again. I do like the process of revising. Taking the paper is another matter. But nevermind, will worry about that later.

Combine Cell

So last friday was combine cell. And we certainly had a blast. Getting together with everyone else and performing for our cell leaders. So many LOL moments and unglam pictures. Made my day. No, made my whole weekend! Saturday's service was especially powerful. (don't know what's in Ps Joyce that speaks so much to me) And Sunday's Ministry + Global Prayer unexpectedly great. Meh. Whelps.. the time spent over the weekend did spur me on to concentrate and really spend my time wisely for this week.

So anyway, Combine Cell at Hackett Hall.

Originally a cafe, now (after some rearrangement) an open area for us to have fun!

As always, food!

The must-have for every cell.

We're all deck out in Black coats and blue jeans. Ha, cell identity.

Testing the strength of the leaders.

Haha! Josh was ultimate!!

.. And the wits. Oh, Peter won hands down.

And then after all the performance and worship.. Ehly-time!

Our dear Allison aka. Ehly.

Jene! Who's here for a month to give emotional support to Isaiah. Awww... How sweet is that?? Really really great knowing you. Always so bubbly and giving hugs!

Meh, a precious source of strength and support. Never fail to give encouragement or a simple smile whenever I need it. Thank you, Ehly-Cellie!

Lucus, awesome worship man. Will always remember you and your 'wife'. (ie. guitar) Accidently kick the case and that's it man. He'll let us have it. nah, kidding, Lucus, you're a nice guy!

Jiali! And all your fruits! Haha, of course not forgetting your delish home-cooked soups. (Check out Ehly's fierce-ness, man.)

Khang Wee!

Awesome chef. Seriously, his steam fish and chicken. THE BOMB!

The youngest.. Jon. The crappy one.

What kind of weird expression you giving?!

Glen. The crappier one! There's a reason why they are housemates.

Talk to you don't know when to believe and when not to.

June!

Heh, will always remember the chee chong fan that you brought for 'breakfast/PJs' cell! Was just what we all needed.

Sam the wise.

Always says the most unexpected things. Like when we think he's about to say something intelligent, he starts crapping. And vice versa

Isaiah.

The essential assistant for Ehly. Efficient and effective.

Peace out! See you guys next sem!

And what considerate guys our RA (residential Advisors) are..

We found refreshments aplenty at our doors on monday morning!

Gummys, lollies and mints!

Red Bull, instant noodles and chips!

Kay, back to studies!

Appreciate you guys man. Great study buddies. And are crapping and listening to Michael Jackson as I type.

A little more than a week left!

Copy and Paste

2009-05-29T23:47:00.055+08:00

... left me with no other choice, man!

I left mackie on while I went out for cell... a whole 4+ hours and not a single photo uploaded from the image thing of blogspot. Gah.. In the end, I resorted to just copying and pasting.. Might not work, might work. Heck, can't care less anymore! So infuriating, please! Why the shit is the internet so screwed?!

And then got no spacing! How are people going to read this?!

Bloody shit.. (sorry for all the cussing. I am not usually so uncouth. Only when I'm beyond pissed)

Above was ranting the night before. It's all good now! After I copied and pasted everything... I realized that none of it could be viewed! Decided to just give it up and go to bed.

And what do I know, early this morning.. after laundry (yes, have to make appointment with the Mr Sunshine. and because I don't want to use the dryer unless absolutely necessary, I have to check the forecast and plan my laundry day! Wake up any later than 9 to do laundry, that's it.. Clothes won't dry) I tried to upload the photos, and it worked!

Anyway, here's something to cheer myself (and most certainly jade) up.

Edward Cullen basking in the italian sun! Before CGI.. If you look closely, you can see black marker dots all over his face and body. Just so that he can be in all his glittery glory on screen.

And after a long separation away from each other... AWWWWW!

The anguish is so clearly written on his face, don't you think?? Another batch of photos (with him shedding his shirt off) from the source shows him to be so much more depressed. And lovely. Just how I like my vampires to be.. melodramatic.

Actually, I thought it was kind of stupid of Edward to try to force himself away from Bella. Makes no sense and would certainly not work. If you love the girl, just be with her man. Torture yourself and her. Tsk. Well, maybe it makes sense in vampire-world. Wait, why am I trying to make sense of a story that involves gorgeous vampires, fiercely-protective werewolves and a vampire-child that can read her parents' mind?

Picture taken from pinkisthenewblog

Moving on..

Christine's 22th

So we prepared a few fun things to make Christine's day...

.... What's Haz up to?

... cleansing before use!

(You'll see why)

Fabulously delish cake.

Fun candles.

Had a really hard time lighting every single one. The winds just blew everything out. And the most epic fail thing was.. we left it outside her door, then rushed to the balcony to surprise her. When she opened her door, the gust of wind (from the door's movement) wiped it all out. So we had to relight while singing to her. Epic fail.

Totally confused her when we started banging on her balcony door too!

See... not lighted anymore.

She likes her present!!

And this was our 'special' present to her..

Daniel Henney and his man parts.

She likeys!!!

Legendary For Sale sign, which we pose with for any and all occasions. Sadly, it got stolen/taken down by Pete (security guard)/taken down by cleaning lady/destroyed as a joke. Yeah, one of those, we have no idea too.

Peace out!

Noe's 21st!

Theme of the party. (explains all our wacky outfits)

One would know they are 'back' to the 'future' when...

... there's an Astroboy doing the wallstar (just made up a name for it, since everyone loves doing it, might as well make it cool)...

... a fashionista-ballarina for a garbage collector...

.... Dracula-esque Darth Vadar...

... Hiro Nakamura! So apt!! Traveling back to the future!

... And Spock! (in Christine's own words, in reference to her hand signs, "must milk all I can out of this! It's the only time I'll ever dress up as Spock!")

Cool-ass Cook Girls! Machiam girl band with their similar get-up.

Southern Sevens. (minus 4, plus Mich!)

While waiting for the party to get started.. Group photo! (check out Steve!! Really into character mans)

Heh. Birthday girl! Our present completed her outfit. *note tiara and badge*

Then she goes on to exclaim, "wait wait!! Cannot take pictures yet! Haven't make-up!"

Kay, so we take first...

All made-up!

One happy baby..

With Mr Playboy-of-the-future..

... with the future-mister??

... with Hiro. Who was trying to transport them forward into the past. (since it's BACK to the future.. Geddit geddit?? Ah, what the heck..)

Room not enough space, so filled out the corridors! Heh, chain-massage. Rieko's enjoying it!

Feng and Astroboy aka her bro..

"He cramps my style!"

Darth Vadar trying to slay a friendly, adorable, orange alien. Typical.

Then,

Food's served!

Personalized cup.. I'm beginning to believe that I am really a dog. Their pet dog.

And a little special something for the guests...

Are you salivating already?!

Chris, the head-chef. Too fast for the camera!

Preparing for batch number two.

While the rest either 'test' the trial ones..

... or watch TV with 3 eyes

... or camwhore

Werrkkit girl!

Who says Clarissa can't cook? (was actually just opening the oven to check on the party snacks. Heh.)

Done!

"Where are my drinks, Haz?!"

Right to it. Homemade Sangrias. Yes, everything is homemade at Trinity. Cake, deco, outfits, even the cocktails!

After about the 3rd cup.. (no la, it'll take more than quadruple that to get Haz even a tad tipsy)

... It's time for the real party to begin!

So we hopped into a maxi-cab and headed down to Northbridge.

Had to stop taking pics after the second flash, if not would have been walloped by the cab-driver.

Heh heh.. Mich is a happy bunny!

Her feelers are really just normal orange fabric on a wire. But it glowed! Guess she really is an alien from the future. At least for the night, then.

Time to dance up a storm on the dancefloor!

But not before a few shots.

And after the shots... Which really had no effect whatsoever. So all subsequent quirkiness are totally their own.

"I challenge you to a dance-off, Noe!"

"You're on!"

Dance-off! Dance-off! Dance-off!

(Like sister, like sister.. Kay Zin really has the grooves, like Noe! Yes, she and Noe's bf came down specially to celebrate her 21st with her!! So.. awww..)

Have no idea why we ended up in a can-can.

Was a crazy night, dancing for 2 hours straight and watching un-straight (if you know what I mean) people make out and feel each other up. Talk about eye-opener. The music was awesome too! An hour of crazy homemade house/techno (which we didn't really fancy) and another hour of mad-fun eighties' punk and nineties' pop! Spice girls, Britney, Abba and Lady Marmalade are our bitches, man..

Was absolute fun partying once in a while. Certainly drew some stares from out outfits.. but who cares. We were there to celebrate with our beloved Noe, who turned 21!

Twas, was time to get back. The Court shuts its doors at 2am, and if we didn't get our booty out by then, they'll let us have it.

Taxi!!

Swan Valley

So Mich and Rhyss came down to chill with us. And it was a week of, shall we say, tourist experience. Did loads of stuff and brought them around. Wouldn't have been able to do so much stuff without Sharon and her car. And Jade! Hello, we were supposed to meet up too.. but that neh neh had so much stuff to do, with her film and rugby. Poor thing really.. But, will we never get to see you?

First stop

The lady was really sweet and nice! We tried out different wines and liquor. Them others got themselves bottles of apricot liquor. Apparently, it's a sell-out. But, meh, it was too sweet for me.

Clar and meself got a bottle of old-vine Shiraz for our dear old dads. Or maybe for myself, ha.. I like red better than white, and Shiraz's one of my faves. So I had to get it! But, I'm sure everyone back home will like it too.

Second
Orggies Ice cream Cafe

(No, you didn't read that wrongly, neither did I misspelt it. It really is what it's known as)

Happy day!

Third Stop

Lunch!
At Duckstein. Breezy open-concept setting, with loads of toddlers running around. My kind of place. Also, unbelievably tender pork and sausages. And yummy grilled potatoes too! With skin, no less!

Fourth Stop

To the middle of nowhere..

Awww.. Makes me heart tingle, just looking at this picture! I love fall, by the way. The shedding trees are gorgeous!

Insert jumping Mich and Rhyss. They had the excuse, it's a tourist thing to do. haha..

It actually wasn't the middle of nowhere. It was another winery, where I bought a bottle of Cabernet Merlot. I told you I love reds. Oh yes, that's where the cute guy served us! Ha.. Yes yes.. 5 twenty year olds lusting after a boy like some tweens. We have our moments too.

Fifth, The Margaret River Chocolate Company

Whole warehouse filled with every type of chocolate you desire. And free for tasting too!

Last Stop
The grandest and oldest winery in WA.

Wasn't much.. Just some sight-seeing. And Oohh-ing and Aahh-ing over all the acts who performed there.

That's the green that they'll perform at. Doesn't it look breathtaking?! Ignore the dark bellowing rain clouds, we could not. So it was time to get back!

A fulfilling Saturday, indeed.

And a fulfilling week as well! Catching up with dear class 'table-woman' and project mate, Mich! Hope you enjoyed yourself tremendously. And Rhyss. Nice knowing you! Catch up with you guys in Sg! (drag jade along!)

Now for some randomities.

Had posters sales (again) A few weeks ago.. And these are everything complied over the two sales.

Johnny and James, already up on my wall. (first thing I see every morning I open my eyes)

And then I went way overboard and got another 6. Just could not resist it!

Got 2 for qin. Blah, no Chuck.

(tried to make it portrait, I really did! But I couldn't...)

If any of you guys want posters, tell me! Can get them at next year's posters sale.

Research for Geography individual powerpoint presentation.

Wasn't quite as bad as I thought it was. Really enjoyed myself, with all the preparations and all.

Hypertext was another story.

Absolutely blew my brains out. And this was not even doing the actual thing.. it was just research and mind-mapping! Glad that's over.

So anyway, about 2 more weeks and I'll be back in the sunny (immensely humid and erratic, so I hear) shores of Singapore. Not before 1 and a half weeks of papers, though. Oh wells, at least I have Joanne's coming to look forward to, after the papers!

Whee~

Wols much?

2009-05-29T14:08:00.003+08:00

Am completely pissed at the "NEW AND FASTER" internet connection.

The trinity internet connection got changed up about a week ago.... to supposedly hasten the speed or something of that sort. And hasten it did not! In fact, it's so much slower than before.. Blogging with pictures has become a huge problem. So I'm resorting to uploading it on Facebook, then copy and paste and upload it here. Even uploading photos to FB is a bitch!

If I'm saying something or someone is slow.. that's deffo saying something, alright..

Anyway.. while waiting for the pictures to be uploaded to FB, shall do a bit of updates.. (but it's so hard.. cause I want to do 'em with photos! GRRR!)

So today's the last day of school. The official end of semester. And seriously, the 4 months plus plus just flew by. Doesn't even feel like half a year has gone and in exactly a week's time, I'm going to be sitting for my first paper. On a Saturday, no less. Not complaining about the exam timetable here.. cause it's all spread out nicely with ample time between each paper to study (or cram...). But I do have one huge lamentation.

On 9th of June.. at 9am, I have this paper at the other end of Campus.. It sucks, alright..!! My goodness, I live at one end.. and I literally have to start walking at 8am to be there on time, or to reach there 15 minutes before. Clar has been urging me to take a bus.. but what's the point?? Heck.. I'll just treat it as morning walk. This means that I have to get up at 6am? So that I can have an hour to roll and whine in bed. Heh..

But why?? Why on my birthday?!

And I do realize that for the next 3 years at least.. I'm going to be spending my birthday having exams. And my 21st! Gah.. and I won't be attending my dear friend's 21st back home!! Most depressing.

Seriously.. I think the photolog will only be up tomorrow. This is so depressing. I thought I could get this over and done with today and then start my revisions tomorrow or tonight after cell. But NO... The internet has to play this game with me.

You win.. you happy now?? Can you revert back to your original-already-slow speed?! Can you? Can you?!

I am not a happy baby. At all.

Remind me again...

2009-05-18T06:51:00.003+08:00

... why I'm doing this

Bah!

I'm tired and insanely hungry!

STUPID HYPERTEXT!

Cannot believe I actually stayed up through the night to complete it! And I'm still not satisfied with it! Heck.. I can't care less about it anymore. It's a ridiculous assignment! How can it constitute the same percentage as an essay!?! Hello, it's an english unit, not a comms unit. WHY THE HECK ARE WE TESTED ON THE TECHNICALITIES OF HTML?!

So damn mad now.. and major-ly hungry!

That's the last of it. I'm never going to take a unit which has such.. techy stuff ever again! Seriously.. Give me an essay, even two, I'l gladly do it for you.. but no such nonsense.. I beg!

Anyway.. Thanks to Zee, I managed to link it all together! I think I'd have sinked into a deep black hole, called irreversible depression, if not for his help. And Haz!! For checking on me to make sure I'm doing and not playing tetris! And for dragging me out of my room to ask for help! Thanks guys.. I owe this to you!

Kay, am going to hand it in after breakfast and come back for a nice long slumber.

NOBODY DISTURB ME!

30 more minutes to breakfast.. hurry knock on my door!

The Long and Short of it.

2009-05-13T19:30:00.004+08:00

I reckon today's the longest I've stayed in the campus this past semester. Honestly, it felt alright.. Not too harrowing. (maybe it's because I only had 1 tute and the rest of the time was spent on psyc experiment and lunch with jamie.. then a long time in REID library to get references..) Ended on a good note, upon collection of my Psyc report. All the hard work paid off!

Oh oh.. and poster sales again! That made my day too. Stocking up on my black and white collection of legendary celebrities. Am so going to frame it up when I get back and stick it on the walls leading up to my room!

The psyc experiment was the irony of my life. Kay, basically, all psyc students have to participate in experiments, which are created by postgrad students doing their PHD, to earn credits. And the one I took part in focuses on...

MEMORY!

Da Da Dang...!!! (in Phineas and Ferb's dad way, when he was replaying the 'Fossils!' recording over and over again)

Seriously, I think I contributed mainly to the lower range of the results. Anyone who knows me knows that Deb is synonymous with slow, blur and forgetful. Seriously, if you look my name up in the thesaurus, I swear...

So anyway, I was so stressed when I was recalling the stuff that I had to be assured by the 'examiner/experimenter'

Oh, don't worry about it.. experiments are meant to be difficult.

Okay, if he said so.. I'm not going to fight it. But I had the feeling that he was thinking..

Why the heck is this girl so slow in subtracting backwards by threes? Isn't it basic math?

(The math part is part of the experiment.. like to distract the participant from remembering the alphabets.. aye)

Hello.. another meaning of Deb is.. CMI (Cannot Make It.. for Mommy's benefit) in Mathematic.. or anything with numbers for that matter. So combining memory and math (M&M.. heh), is a lose-lose sitch.

So anyway... I have good news!

I'M COMING BACK IN 36 MORE DAYS!

Exams ends on 15th.. am going to pack and shop a bit before flying back on a midnight flight on the 17th.. and ARRIVING AT 6.45AM ON 18TH!

EXCITING!

I know, what a totally ulu hour.. But but.. I just cannot wait. And I can sleep on my flight, so I won't be wasting anytime to enjoy my family and friends!

Yays..!

Realize that I sound unnecessary high.. But one should understand how excited I am. *Beams*

P.S. I wanna go UC Berkley for exchange! Shall find out more about it tomorrow. *Beams Beams*

Of Gold and Heart Attacks, then Death

2009-05-11T09:20:00.004+08:00

As if last week's blow wasn't enough.. I think I could possibly have died that little bit more inside last night.

Skyping with home was awesome as always. Seeing everyone, albeit the laggy connection, and talking crap.. with daddy trying to feed me tea eggs and curry puff through the webcam. (stop tempting me! 40 more days and I can have all the local delights okay!) Fine and dandy, everything was until the second skype session started at 11pm.

It started off alright.. like watching with my folks back home. I almost felt back home, slouching on my couch, munching on tapioca chips and drinking opal-shiraz.

Then, 27th.. and 38th.

By then, I reckon I'd lost the will to breathe. But I still held on to the sliver of hope.

That sliver was stolen right from the second get-go and the rest of the night dove into a black abyss.

Cannot believe the first time I get to watch a life match from down under could end up in such a heartbreak! Meh..

No worries, there's always next year. (I just have to keep telling myself that)

I know I know... why so loserish, must watch soccer match through skype.. isn't the connection bad? And will be damn laggy? I'm too lazy to walk to the common room to watch.. and I don't wanna watch alone! That would be even more loserish. And I have my comfy bed and duvet and corner corner.. why on earth would I want to leave my awesome room, brave the cold and watch somewhere that's not comfortable at all?!

On happier news, took part in Volleyball Tertiary Sports last friday and UWA came in first!! Was quite a close final against Curtin (we owned then mostly.. but nerves got the better of us in the second set), but we came up tops. Actually like playing over here.. very enjoyable and pressure-free. All fun and game. Also played my favorite position, libero and had an awesome time. The medal that they handed out was a tad.. unfinished, though. There wasn't any carving at all.. like just a plain tertiary sports logo and a trophy. Whelps, at least we got honor and glory! Heh..

Now, off to the theories of Perception. No Sigmund Freud please..

Bridges or Walls

2009-05-07T14:13:00.003+08:00

I've been meaning to blog this down since last friday.. But never really got around to it. Mainly procrastinating, being lazy (as usual) and the ridiculous addiction that is Hana Yori Dango. It's the Japanese version of Meteor Garden, if anyone even remembers it, and my absolute entertainment every vacation since secondary 1. Seriously, I would re-watch it every december holiday and swoon over Jerry Yen. I still do now.. and yes, I do realize I'm hitting 20 soon and should not still be indulging in all these ga-ga teenage moments.

But, after watching the Japanese rendition, I have to admit that it's loads better than the Taiwanese one. The acting, the music, the plot and character development. Even though Domyouji may not be as good looking as Dao Ming Shi, his charisma grows on you. No one can ever ever replace Jerry.. but the series as a whole is so much better. And I actually like Makino here! Shan Cai was totally annoying.. and so not pitiful.

Anyhow, this isn't the point of this post.

What got me thinking was what a speaker said during last friday's combine cell. He said (or something to this extent),

"There's only two things you can do when you come to know someone. Build a bridge or erect a wall."

He went on to elaborate about various relationships, friendship in general. And what I inferred was.. how many different events can lead to a friendship.

Most of the time, we form friendships because we were thrown together due to different circumstances. Yes, we can say that most friends we have are friends of convenience. We just happen to need each other so that we feel part of a social group. But then, as we get to know one another better, we discover common interests, mindset or even backgrounds. Somehow, we grow more comfortable with one another and are 'magnetized' towards these individuals. Subconsciously, we start working on a bridge, linking ourselves to others. All because there's some sort of chemistry and we want to develop an even deeper relationship.

Other times, as we get to know someone better, we aren't compelled to reach out. It may be due to peer pressure, social statues/norms, past disappointments or just purely selfish reasons. Whatever the cause, we unknowingly erect a wall either around ourselves or just between someone.

Like what the picture above depicts. We connect with others through telecommunications and what-nots. But only with people we want to connect with. Others that we can't be bothered with, we simply slot ourselves into separate cubicles so that we won't have to deal with them. I think I'm not making much sense here, with the picture, but you get my drift. (By the way.. National Geographic Photography has like awesome pictures. And I especially love their landscape gallery)

And when he was talking about all the encounters he had with other people and how it is our ultimate goal to be genuine, a good testimony, and to reach out.. It's like I got a revelation of some sort. Well.. not as powerful as a prophecy.. it's more like.. an epiphany. Like, before cell, some issues came up as I was talking to some friends. Not issues with the people I was talking to.. more like.. others. And I was thinking, what would I do in such a circumstance? Would it be completely unreasonable to just stop interacting? Or would it be better to tolerate and carry on as if things are still the same?

And his message was like an answer right in my face! How could I even consider erecting a wall, if I was in that position? Would that be how I want myself to be remembered as a person? As a friend?

Things can be tough.. relationships can turn sour, but we'd only be "passing through this valley" as Pastor Patrick said on saturday.. (Yup, God is definitely trying to tell me something if he speaks to me two days in a row about the same issue) And if we apply the right attitude and actions in difficult times, we'll only emerge stronger. Like what Kanye West attest,"... that don't kill me, can only make me stronger..."

Heh.

But that's tough, in'it? To love unconditionally and without motives.

Ah well.

That's why we're only humans.

I'M ON A BOAT~

2009-04-28T20:00:00.049+08:00

Yes, another song title. And it's a really annoying but catchy song, which we couldn't get out of our heads days after the 'rivercruise'.

The 'Rivercruise' was fun, for a while. Until they started playing shit music and everyone got drunk and started making out. Fun to watch though.. a tad boring after.. Tsk tsk.. a bunch of wasted college kids. So we began entertaining ourselves!

On the way...

... The theme was 'Pirates', see..

Crazy-ass face!

On board and ready to terrorize!

Looky, it runs on a steam engine! Interesting... Wonder how that would work for a real pirate's ship. Don't they have to other ways to make the ship go faster... Oh, sails. We didn't have that..

I know, I know.. nothing like a pirate. I swear, I regretted not spending effort in dressing the part.. but well, I tried my best. I'm a captured princess! Heh..

Haz is a... Scary pirate-advisor/witch?

Drinking = Death?

Why oh why did I 'skull' with Haz?? Sure lose la.. Look, hers is already empty while mine is still half-filled..

The after-effects. She looks like she's doing the cha-cha, doesn't she?

Cute!

Mega-cute!!

Huiren makes the cutest faces!!

And Haz... makes the.. erm, most suggestive faces?

ARRRR!

AHAHAHA!!! KJ!! WE'RE SUPPOSED TO BE POSING AGGRESSIVELY! You just look like you're yawning!

O.o Rieko makes cute faces too!

Dear project-mate! Hope we do good, eh Jess?

Haz and her hands. She has this dance move.. and she claims that she can dance to ANY music with her hands/move.. And I have to say, I'm amazed. We tested her theory and it has been proven true! Boyband, rap, love songs, you name it, she'll dance for you!

Birds flying alongside our boat..

I don't know why they do that.. Did they think that the boat was a giant fellow seagull leading the flock?

"Who's that I see?"

Deb and HAZ!

Jerald and Marco sure look the part of pirates... albeit, a tad too friendly.

Awesome night-view of the matilda bay.

... Happily taking pictures.. then..

... Everyone rushed in!

The night had to end some how.. and off we go.

Trinity-themed Dinner- The Oscars

Well, nothing too glamorous about that. It was basically dressing up to for dinner at the dining hall. Dots, I know. But it was fun dressing up.. I just hoped they had more planned to make it more.. I don't know, Oscar-ish? Like paparazzi lined outside the entrance to take pictures and shouting out our names?? Haha.. I live in my own 'lil world, yes I do.

Clar and Haz (resident stylish)

The headband?? All Haz. Clar was moaning about having a bad hair day and Haz just plops a band on her and viola! Rockstar chick!

Look how excited Noe Zin is.. Skipping in like that..

Semi-red carpet shot. Not too bad la. Missing huiren.

There.. 'South' Girls! We should come up with a name or something. Machiam girlband.

You rock it out, girl!

Yes, we had to accommodate her somehow. Let her feel tall for that few seconds.

Steve: Why you all so tall still wanna wear heels?!

Star-strewn, glitter-peppered table with popcorn for appetizers!

Ha.. and then we jumped to desserts. Awesome pear-shaped ice-cream!

Haz amusing everyone with her 'hands-dance'

HA! Deer caught in headlights!

Look how it perspires...

... Yum yum!

*Hearts*

I love this shot! Everyone's posing so nicely..

And then off to 'Cap. S' for traditional after-party.

Smack that ass!

Kay. Too busy having fun to take pictures after some..

Strangely enough, the dance-floor was quite empty for a wednesday night/after dinner crowd. Oh well, we had our fun.

Chinese dance??
Kay, I see steve couldn't be bothered anymore.

Marco 'Cheese...!', Deb 'Eww... Why am I stuck between these 2?!', Shyan 'Shhh...' (His signature move on the court)

Yup, we were taking a break from walking back..

I sense some bromance..

... and more!

.. Sign that we picked off the road and..

... pasted it on our corridor!

Ended the night stuffing on chips and talking crap.

Seriously, two nights in a row, not good on one's health. And now, I'm absolutely resolved to change my lifestyle! Good Health, here I come!

Tourist day- Freo

Mad day of shopping and eating and shopping and eating!

Oh, what joy if we could do this every week. But.. heh, work is upon us once again. Assignments and presentations leading us by our noses.

Anyhow... no harm reliving fond memories, I reckon.

Never thought playing chess in public could be this glam. Well, when you compare it to people playing at void decks and parks.. And yes, we weren't actually playing. But that's not the point here.

Picturesque, no?

Ahahaha!! Clar makes cute faces too...

They found the light!

Haz looks scary here.. like she wants to eat up Christine!

I spy with my little eye.. Cheah huiren..

... Taking a picture of us!

Awesome bookshop/vintage-apparel-store. They sell the most exquisite stuff!

Enough walking. NOW FOOD!

Little creatures
Excellent atmosphere.

Yes, those ginormous silver tanks are dispensers for home-made beer!

And we're tired of waiting!! That place was mad-packed. Never ending flow of people queueing to get in for fried food and fantastic beer. And we had to wait for well over 30 minutes.

Hunger leads to anger..

... Leads to sian-ness..

... Leads to insanity?? What so funny on the menu?

... Leads to nonchalance and more sian-ness..

.. Tried to cheer 'em up by doing a lil 'Dr. Hanky'..

Epic Fail! Noe Zin still seems interested in the menu, though.

Sad 'lil' creature..

FINALLY!! YUM YUM!!

Amazing Nachos.. Just look at the sauce and toppings!

Can't be bothered to talk anymore.. Everyone dug in! (Am salivating as I type)

Finished in record time! HA. Can't even be bothered to take a proper picture!

That's how good their booze is!

Some random pictures..

So, I woke up this morning and got a shock of my life. Awoke at 7am (I'm trying to adjust to a healthier lifestyle, see) and turned my head out the window to take in the warm beams of sunlight and what do I see, first thing I opened my eyes?! This huge bird sitting on my balcony ledge. I thought of opening the door to take a closer pic, but was afraid to scare it away.. I should have, eh? Seeing how badly it scared me.

I wonder.. does it always roast on my balcony ledge? Cause I never wake so early. Hmm.. Today felt good. I should wake up early everyday. Then I'll see stuff I never get to see. Instead of wasting the half the day sleeping in.

Spider web on my laundry hanger. Loads of spiders here.. and it's a wonder how persistent these spiders are. I destroy them every day. Yet, every morning, there's a new one.

Home-made mojito!

Haz felt inspired one fine day and off they went to get some barcardi, mint leaves, lime and sugar.. and here we have.. Not bad for home-made stuff.

Balloons released after easter carnival. Heh.. should have let the kids take 'em home, eh?

Suntanning day- Cottesloe

This was during the easter break (I know, long overdue).. And what a major disappointment we got when we reached.

What the shit!

That was my reaction. I mean.. hello!! Machiam genting can! It was already noon, mind you. And the fog was spectacularly thick!

Can't even see most of the ocean! Don't know what's up that day.. But we still went down, sulking and whining..

After half an hour, the sun came out and fun ensued.

Heh..

Paparazzi shots by miss cheah.

Tsk tsk, she came later and was taking pictures of us the whole time, while we gallivanted in the waters!

Water was freaking cold.. but the tides were strong and really fun to ride in!

... as this picture depicts. haha!! I look so comical!

Yay.. clear skies at last.

Meow meow.. yeah, I know.. Why I disappeared for so long then post such a long post. Well, one word, lazy.

And believe it or not, I was studying and completing my assignments! Who says Uni is easier than JC?! I seriously beg to differ.

Been racking my brains out from day 1. Alright.. that's an overestimation. Week 2 then.

Can't believe I've been here for 2 months. Feels longer!! And this time away made me realize, that I'M NOT AS INDEPENDENT AS I/PEOPLE THINK I AM!

I mean emotion-wise. Hmm.. I always thought I was damn hard-core.. can just go off and focus on my current state. Like, many experiences in life has shown me to be a nonchalant, detached human being. I could just shut my mind off something and throw everything into a box, close the lid and not think about it anymore. Like ever... And I'm rarely emotional.. Except when it comes to spiritual matters, it's the only time I let my guard down..

I thought I could do the same with this.

BUT I'M TERRIBLY HOMESICK!

Well, not as terrible as 2/3 weeks ago. But homesick, nonetheless. I miss everything! Auntie Alma's food (soup especially) and our deep-conversations, Becky and her stupid teenage stories, daddy and his childish antics.. mommy and her cuteness! Sigh.. MY BED!!! MY TOILET! Yes, my toilet.. I'm going to embrace every part of my toilet when I get back. The toilet bowl even!

THE GANG!!! (I've said this umpteen times.. It's not the same without you guys!)

MY BABY! (Whose birthday is coming up... BABY I MISS YOU!!)

THURSDAY CLUB! (haha.. another 2 hour skype-session?? KRYSTAL ONG, have to go your house for sleepover!)

KELVIN!!!!! Hurry arrange a flight here! Been eons since we HTH! Actually no. It was just a week ago. Heh..

Not that life isn't good here, I know I deffo am not missing sg's weather, but it's just different.

Starting new health regime this week. Shall see how that goes, eh?

I've been sitting

2009-03-29T20:21:00.008+08:00

... watching life pass from the sidelines..

Just updating to let y'all know that I'm still alive and well. (clar keep telling me to go online, to SHOW people that I'm still alive..)

Yup, another post titled by lyrics. And this one's from 'August Rush', called This Time. By Jonathan Rhys Meyers!!! Oh, the joy when I heard him sing in the movie! Actually, that's pretty much the highlight of the entire movie for me. (sorry joanne! I know you loved the movie!)

Anyhow..

ahh.. ermm.. I haven't been blogging for so long, I don't know how to anymore.

School's been pretty busy. And next week's going to be a death week. Honestly.. 1 essay, 1 folio outline, 1 paper, and 1 presentation. But when I compare to people back home.. like not a lot leh. Ah well.. I just hope I get through next week safely and then it's EASTER BREAK! And meeting up with YJ, of course.

To further demonstrate my gratitude for helping me bring stuff over.. I'm thanking you here! THANK YOU, BOSSMAN!

Aww.. Homecoming at XMS is tomorrow and I can't be there! With the gang and all. It sucks! I know I haven't been contacting you guys.. Meh, I'm such an inert, bad friend.. but yeah, I'm fine!

And well..

Nothing much happened..

Last week was winter-stuff-shopping! Not that winter is coming anytime soon. It's still getting pretty chilly here. 2 consecutive days of shopping, pretty productive I'd say.

At (some back alley of) Freo

Oh gosh, the clear skies, sun and waves was exactly what I needed to perk up my week. Felt completely refreshed after the walk around Freo. And what's more, cell at night.. Just what the doctor prescribed.

2 months have just flown by and it's like.. Weird. I don't know how to describe it.. it's almost like an out of body experience. Like I'm not really leading this life, just sitting watching life pass by. Not to imply that I've been inactive, but more so.. watching my life pass by in a 'Wow, it's really happening' kind of way.

I think some part of my brain got disconnected along with the change of weather.. I feel very sedated these days and not thinking much.. just do dO DO! Or maybe it's just this crunch-time period when I'm getting all paranoid about stuff. Essay and folio.. Gah gah..

As we say here, "blame it all on the weather!"

Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds...

I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind

Would the wind be at my back? Could I get you off my mind?

This time..

She's got electric boots, and a mohair suit

2009-03-23T00:22:00.003+08:00

You know I read it in a magazine

Oh, Bennie and the Jets~

I'm addicted to this song!

I know. Title-ling my posts with song lyrics? But that's cause it's my main source of entertainment now! And thanks to the awesome creation that is 'Shakespeer', I get to 'share' (if you know what I mean) endless supply of movies, songs, TV drama-s with the rest of college! And my playlist, I'm pleased to say, expanded by quite a fair bit. Easy access to quality music, I can't ask for more.

I realised that it is so very important to be self-centered. At times. Whatever do I mean by that?

Doesn't it hit you that you won't be getting anywhere if you're not outshining everyone else? I mean.. that's the world for you. And some are self-absorbed enough to propel themselves forcefully into the scope of vision of others. That's the only way they know how to motivate themselves to be the best. Sapping on their oversized ego.

No matter what it takes, you just have to go all out, even if it means you talk a whole load of crap in class, to show that you're getting involved.

I honestly hope for a different world. Where we better ourselves for the sake of helping others. And that should be our real motivation.

It is important to be self-centered, but not in that sense that we all know. More so, self-worth. Having full faith in yourself, and being the best person you can possibly be.

So anyway, I watched this film, 'Donnie Darko' for my Screen and Print Culture unit. And I have to say.. It is the most mind-boggling, scary yet strangely satisfying film I've ever seen. I absolutely LOVE it!

Not going to spoil anyone's experience, if you're even considering watching this cult film. Which by the way, bombed big-time in the box office when it was released back in 2001 because of the abstract take and bad-timing. (9/11 incident) But it has since won legions of fans all over the world, with late-night movie screenings and the release of dvd.

I would say, though, that it left me thinking a whole deal. About different aspects of life and death.. and also figuring out what the hell is the actual plot. On second thought, I don't think I want to figure that out.. I quite like the freedom I have now to choose whichever path (in terms of how the story goes in the film) I want. So I don't think I'm going to watch the director's cut version anytime soon.

I do, however, anticipate that not everyone's going to like the film.. It's one of those that you either love or hate. Or simply turned off by it.. because it doesn't make any sense, at first glance.

Kudos to Richard Kelly for producing such an irrelevant (well, not completely), tasteful piece of art. And his first film too! Amazing. And for casting Jake Gyllenhaal, who's psychotically delightful as the lead.

To my major dismay, I found out about the release of 'S. Darko' later this month. It's supposed to be a sequel to 'Donnie Darko' and I absolutely abhor the idea of making a sequel of such a one-of-a-kind picture.

What's more? The director of 'S. Darko' claims to be a fan of Richard Kelly and is attempting to replicate the awesome-ness of it's preluding film. The problem is, he's catering to the masses! And because it's Hollywood, they're going to have a cliche ending! He's so going to destroy the essence of 'Donnie Darko'.

Vehement as I may sound, I'm not going to completely discount this coming film. I will still hold on to my reservations about it.. But I can't just flick it off without giving it a chance, right?

(the other film for this unit is 'Minority Report' I HATED IT! Primarily because of Tom Cruise and the ending. Otherwise, I thought the suspense/script and editing were awesome, and the soundtrack of course.. my beloved John Williams.)

Of course, who can hate the song at the end of 'Donnie Darko'?!

'Mad World'- Gary Jules

Another song I'm addicted to at the moment. Believe it or not, I have 3 versions of this song! And my favourite is the original one by 'Tears for Fears'.. Ahh.. reminiscing the eighties! (though I haven't lived a whole deal in that decade.. I love that era) The other one by 'The Red Paintings' is cool too. It has the indie vibe to it.

When people run in circles

It's a very very mad world

Freaking 13 degrees celsius now!

In the Center of the City...

2009-03-16T23:28:00.014+08:00

... there's roast meat waiting for you..

Completely random.. But it's my fave song for the moment. The actual title is 'Shadowplay' by The Killers. In fact, I love all their pieces! Listening to them never fail to make me happy and calm, and contented. Right now, I'm hungry too. Nothing to do with the band.

Right.

I did promise pictures.

And pictures I have!

These are from way back, though.. there's still Cottesloe with Hui Ren and Clar's 2nd Birthday surprise.

After shopping at iKea.. While we were waiting for the bus.

BEHOLD!

Amazing sunset!

Amazing (attempt to smile) squint. Faith looks so cute, hiding behind the pillow!

Khairul, you look gay la.

... the following are just random shots.

Oh, the pride! Gorgeous right?!!?! The architecture of the Geography/geology building?

And.. I walk pass it everyday.. not into it! I only have one tute in it! The rest are all in Arts building, which is not too shabby as well. It's the home for UWA residential peacocks/pea-hens too!

My first time doing laundry..

Naturally, I had to take a picture of this life-changing experience!

And lucky I have Noe Zin and Clar to help me! I felt so noob, please..

Me: err.. this goes where? (holding the token)

Clar: Just slot it in.. (points to slot)

Me: Right.. (tries her hardest to get the odd-shaped token in.. but fails)

Clar and Noe: ...

Me: what am I doing wrong?!

Clar: (takes the token and flip it around) There.. (token fits in.. water start to load )

Me: Oh. (pauses and recalls something) EHHH!! Haven't put softener!

Clar and Noe: (facepalms*) deborah.. wait. You have to wait for the water to load.

Me: Oh.

Noe: Marley...

(inside joke... Actually she didn't call me that then.. I just included to show that they can't stop calling my marley now, everytime I do something.. out of blur-ness!)

Me likes the lil corner of the corridor. And this is the view of the other rooms, from that lil corner.

I never thought I would live to see the day after, during this ride from Marco.

Kidding la. He's a safe driver.. just that his car.. and so 'beng' (picture this- booming engines, chinese techno blasting from his enhanced speakers, blue lights installed in random parts of his car to give the 'effect').. I felt like someone was going to come up to us and challenge or something.

Oh, this was on our way to Mandura for crabbing.

EPIC FAIL! (in clar's words)Wanted to take one of everyone taking a break from the ride... and the line of cars.. But it was too dark!)

Do you see what I see??

Sorry, being annoying.

Was trying to capture the amazing star-strewn sky. But it was, again, an epic failure. But, believe me, the night sky was exactly the same as the scene from POTC 3 when they sailed through the night before going into the other world! Plus the water was reflecting all the stars.. We were surrounded by stars.. literally!

Outside Burswood theatre, after Phantom.

Amazing right?? The moon's up so high even before the sun sets!

The booklet was A$20. No way in hell was I going to pay for it! OHOH!! Roaul (alexander Lewis) was awesome! So charming and tall and when he sings the duet "All I Ask of You" with christine.. sighs..

GET WHAT I MEAN!!??!

Printer at Architecture building..

To show you exactly how big it is..

.. Goodness! It's as big as Clar!

Multi-coloured apples! (plus Mackie..)

I'm supposed to get cracking on my short story.. But I'm heading no where! I do feel more at ease, after the lecture today though.. Apparently, it's okay and normal for writers to be heading no where, initially. That's the key word, yeah.. initially.

But blogging is a way of practicing my writing I guess. Hmm.. then why does it sound like a miserably weak excuse?

SOBS*

2009-03-08T00:17:00.002+08:00

It's frightening how easily my waterworks turn on these days.

Don't worry, dear readers.. for these are 'happy' tears. Well, not exactly.. What I meant, is that I'm not severely depressed or suffering from any form of syndrome. It's just that the past week, I've been emotional. (now, why is that? I thought I was perpetually detached from any sort of feelings forever) Or rather, emotional events pop up and I go.. bawling my eyes out.

Most recently, about 3+ hours ago, 'Marley & Me'! It's such a tear-jerker! And I sort of refrained from it.. (like how I did for 'Twilight', initially.) Because well, I thought it was just another tear-jerker. But, boy was I wrong! It's a really good one. (as a movie itself, not comparing to the book here) I mean the transition of life and the meaning of family.. Meh.

And then during cell last night.

Sighs.. The words that Allison spoke just pierced right into my heart. It was as if she turned on the switch in my head. (no Hui ren, clar, noe zin, and Haz, not meaning that I didn't use my brain before, okay!) The switch that got switched off long time ago and wouldn't budge. I so needed to hear that and take in all the encouragement. It's amazing, because it's not directly to me.. but somehow like it was planned!

Earlier this week, or late last week. Aye, don't wanna go there. Yeah, qin, I think you should know what I'm talking about.

Maybe it's cause I didn't have enough sleep this past week. I read it somewhere that the amount of sleep affects the way you perceive things and that you tend to be more emotional.

Moving on.

Had a really fun time today and yesterday.

CLARISSA! HAPPY (ADVANCED) BIRTHDAY! I HOPE THAT YOU ENJOYED YOURSELF TOO! I KNOW YOU DID!

Eh, actually I have like loads to update about?? But I don't really remember the details now! Hmm, there was

Movies at Burswood (double feature-'Marley & Me' and 'Bride Wars')

crabbing at Mundura

eating the crabs that we caught

beach vball at an outdoor court. In the middle of suburbs. (yeah! As in.. real professional sandy courts along the streets!)

beach day-out (totally going to boycott Siloso after Cottesloe, unless absolutely necessary)

'PHANTOM OF THE OPERA'! (how can I forget?!)

meeting cool peeps in tutes

crazy load of readings (I know I've been going on about this. Just let me rant..)

EXCEL ASSIGNMENT ON GREENLAND'S ICE-CORE DUE NEXT TUES!

Ah well, the fun outweighs the work.. (for now.. And I'm hoping it stays this way, at least til mid-sem).. can't complain, can I?

Right. Pics up soon, I hope.

"Something old, something new.

.. Something borrowed, something blue"

"... and a silver sixpence in her shoe.."

Sinking

2009-02-27T18:16:00.002+08:00

I. Am. So. Dead.

Okay.. that was how I felt before dinner.. when I logged onto Webct (finally) and got a hold of all my readings. Hello! It's only week 1! Man, just thinking about the massive pile makes me shudder!

But.. I've accepted it (over dinner, yeah), with clarissa's persuasion, that's it's managable. Actually it was more of her psychotic ways that forced me into agreeing with her.. (kidding!)

I need to do something dangerous.. before I lose my mind here. Maybe jump off a cliff.

Nay, I shall just get my toe clipped off by a crab later. Hope the waters isn't too cold.. and that it doesn't stink as badly as legend says.

PS. JADE!! I WANNA SNUGGLE UP TO UP AGAIN! heh.. I meant, we should meet up again. erm.. yeah..

Thus far

2009-02-26T20:59:00.007+08:00

It's going to talk a while for me to get used to studying.

Seriously.. readings are piling in!! Either that or I'm just being paranoid.. It's been so long since I studied, and I'm feeling handicapped.

Whoever said Uni is going to be easier than JC is a LIAR!!

ROAR~

Alright.. other than that.. the days have been going well. Still adapting, peeps are helping me along and I'm damn grateful. What I'm not getting used to is the sudden drop in temperature within 2 days. And it actually rained in Perth! As I'm typing, I can literally feel my fingers freezing up and getting ready to drop off.

Anyhow, college life is a whole different dimension by itself.

Having a fire drill at 6 in the morning, standing in the 10 degrees celsius cold in nothing but fbt and saints shirt, after a night of partying.. is so not how I want to start my day-off.

Oh wells, life goes on.

Commencement dinner.

South Sharks 3rd floor!!

Glad I went in the end. It's like.. part and parcel of college life which I wouldn't wanna miss out on.
Yeah, Noe Zin was just that little bit off.

Haz and Noe skipping their way to 'Cat S' (I have no idea how it's spelt)

I highly suspect that Haz was supporting Noe.

Ahaha!! Classic pic! Noe's like staring at huiren's booby and Steve just happy! Overly happy, might I add. Huiren, being her usual hyper self.

Cheers y'all!

I really hope the weather warms up. It's the middle of summer, for goodness' sake!

How's it going?

2009-02-18T09:44:00.004+08:00

Yes..

Finally, internet (the legal one) is configured for me!

I really have not much to blog about. As in.. I don't have my thoughts all gathered yet. But pictures to describe my past week here, yes?

Went to Burswood outdoor theatre last night. It was AWESOME! Exactly the type of atmosphere I crave. Sky dotted with countless twinklies, lounging on cool-ass bean bags and totally absorbed in old-school movies.

'The Tale of Despereaux'. Quite a good animation, I'd say.. Albeit being a tad draggy. The morals were nice though.

And I was thoroughly entertained pre-movie..

.. cause of these 2 kiddies!

So adorable! They were running around, making up stories.. Wish I could do that still.

There. Before nightfall..

Last week, I was at Cottesloe Beach. Just walking around. And 1 thing I noticed about Perth is that there are no small birds. All the avian beings are really huge. Only 1 week after my arrival did I spot a pigeon.

And somehow, the birds look really.. stupid.

... like this seagull here. Actually it looks really evil here.. As if it's scheming around.

Oh, the joy! If I could take in this view everyday.

Peihan posing with the rest of the beautiful white shore.. But do you see what I see?

The waters are also super clean and blue.

Now back to my room.

Notes from the girls already pinned up! And my really nice neighbour Noe Zin!

There.. Old-school woody yet homely room.. Yes, I just woke up and couldn't be bothered with packing my bed.

Hopefully, my thought can get gathered soon for a proper post, yea?

Is this real-life..???

2009-02-06T20:41:00.005+08:00

Oh MAN!! Everybody, go watch this vid.. It's so freaking funny! So on par with 'Blood Baby'!

It's taken from pinkisthenewblog, only my favourite daily source entertainment and glimpse into the fake and fab world that is hollywood..

What children say on average is already so cute.. when one is 'high' on GA, it's too cute to handle! Poor kid, though. Being so confused and all.

Anyhoo.. it's been great catching up with people the past 2 weeks. Thanks y'all for taking the time out from your really hectic schedule to spend more time with me!

Desmond, I know you're reading this!! You sneaky blog-stalker! Haha..

Glad we at least met up a few times, to catch up and talk rubbish. Never knew reminiscing about a past relationship could be such a laugh. Don't miss me! =)

A2, you know I love you guys!

Though that night was filled with numerous unglam moments.. (picture krystal screaming,"BOON LIANG!" upon seeing him.. in the MIDDLE OF RAFFLES CITY ENTRANCE. I swear, everyone in that vicinity.. and it was after-work, mind you.. turning to stare at us.. taz, clar and myself decided to escape while we still could) ... I really had a whole lotta fun. *beams*

The 'Gang'...

There are no other names I can think of for this particular group of secondary school friends. (mostly because YJ is the bossman.. heh) I tell you, one of the many things I'm going to miss is having almost-weekly dinner/gossip session/catching up with them. Meh.. really you know. I'm so so glad I got to know each and everyone of them more during the course of the past 2 years.

Texas Hold 'em was ownage stuff!

Next year I'll come prepared with plenty coins.. so I can play all day!

Girlies..

you know who you guys are.. Man, I don't know what I would do without you guys, physically in my life. And I don't wanna think about it now. Gah!

Baby! Wait for me!! And and.. we'll go back to Tioman to have another honeymoon!! It'll be our anniversary! OH NO!! JY is going to have an unfair advantage while I'm not in Sg..! I've to eliminate the enemy! kidding. or not.

Jess.. Yeah, I know I said I won't miss you guys. But who am I kidding, right? You know, I know.. that's enough. =) My partner in class for 2 years! We shall skype and find our optimal 'high' time and have mad laughter for hours okay!

Joanne-no-knee!! I think it's cool we unknowingly form this unspoken 'thing'.. I guess most people would call that friendship.. but it's more than that. It's like, I have no way of explaining it but yeah.. it's like telepathy or smth.. always there for each other, whenever we need an ear or shoulder. Meow-sigh~ I'm so going to think of you whenever I say that! =)

qin.. meh meh. whelps, what more can I add and say? My best friend who has seen every part of me. Figuratively.. not literally. I know it's harder on you, than it is on me. But.. we'll get through this, I'm sure. I'm anticipating the many more years to come, okay!

Cell!! Last cell tmr! How?! Over the past 2+ years, I've grown comfortable and contented.. (not comfortable enough that you can pounce on me suddenly, while citing the act as hugging, Tiff!) build friendships, form confidantes.. Growing together.. helping me along the way. And I'm glad for Faith, who'll be there to bring me around and settle me, somehow. (she's so nice!! Offer to bring me go have dinner on my first day!) What an apt timing, don't you think?

Daddy and mommy.. I don't even want to go there man. To that place, where I'm all alone with my thoughts and nothing else. When I think about the moment when I have to part with you two. Okay... stop! I'm not going there.. so yes, all fine and dandy.

Becky, haiya, you already have an entire post all to yourself!

This was supposed to be a short short post about 'David after dentist' vid.

Oh well.. dinner awaits.

Heart-shaped Bruises

2009-01-21T12:38:00.009+08:00

I've been thinking about the issues of sacrificial love, a lot lately. not so much sacrificing.. more of people leaving things, people, situations behind, so that that people you love can be happy. (or so you think)

About the rights and wrongs, who's to blame.. and basically the logic behind it all.

Some do it so that problems will be resolved, other do it cause it is important and the only rational thing to do.

Some are forced out of immense love, others are simply left with no choice but to 'get the heck out'.

The rest genuinely feel that it would be so much better to leave and let their love be. But they will always be waiting in the wings for the return of that lost love. Hopeful.. Waiting..

It's quite a paradox, really. Because sacrificing may not be a selfless act. It's contradictory, the way I put it. What the heck do you mean?! Sacrificing, in every sense of the word is to be selfless!

But what if, this sacrifice is a disguise of denial. To deny yourself of the thing you want most, so that you can feel the pain that would eventually numb all else. So that you can claim to be magnanimous enough to let go. Or so you make yourself think.

Putting it that way, the act of letting go.. well, is really just an act. Because you will never truly be able to give up and move on. You'll always re-visit that place, no matter the circumstance of your current life, be it content or otherwise.

And I'm not saying that one should cling on with their life to the other party. Like a leech to a clot of blood.

Isn't it better to let it go and move on? I know it is easier said than done. But it's possible. Instead of pretending.. just really take time to let reality sink in, grieve over it, then give up and live your life.

I just cannot understand why people do it. Abusing themselves this way. Inflicting heart-shaped bruises on themselves.

Frankly, I think it's plain dumb.

But on deeper meditation, I cannot help but be convinced by their logic (whether it is right or not, is highly debatable). Slowly, I begin to see the sense of it all.

The cut is just too deep to heal properly anymore. Even if the divided flesh welds together in the process of recovery, it will never be in the same perfect condition.

The scar will never fade. A reminder of that chapter. Like a bookmark sticking out of a book. A bookmark placed there permanently. Intentionally.

Try as you might, that part of your life has irrevocably altered your course. And there is no going back, because a life without that 'lost' is not a life at all.

So, in order to get a semblance of a normal life, you act like you've gotten over it. You hang out with your friends like before. You laugh, you have fun. You even have the strength to pucker up enough courage to consider the possibility of starting out with another person.

Until you're all alone and your mind starts to wonder off to that place, again.

Nothing changed, even though you left. Your feelings are still intact and as overwhelming as ever, if not more.

And you'll always be waiting for the possibility of reconciliation. You'll always be there, in times of need and desperation. You don't even care if you're a tool, just as long as there's a possibility.

You wait. While heart-shaped bruises slowly form.

Either I've lost my mind, or I've been exposed to too much drama.

I bet it's the latter. I hope it's the latter, at least.

I wonder... Are our lives really as dramatic as all the TV series make out to be? Because it certainly seems to be like that these days.

Are we encouraged to live like how it is being portrayed? The sensationalized life. Or are our lives the real inspiration behind all the storyboards of hit series?

Yup, definitely been exposed to too much of these emo stuff. Immersing myself in in the 'Twilight' saga (now on 'Breaking Dawn') totally. Sharing, no, more like listening and then analyzing, really personal and sensitive details of life with a new friend.

Mostly the latter, again. And then intensified by Jacob and Edward.

Ah.. the irresistibly charming mythical creatures, in their own sick ways. Sick, the way they give it all for Bella.. it's way pass cheesy now. It's unfathomable. But still strangely enticing.

Tsk..! I think I'm living my life backwards. Like Benjamin Button. being the adult for most of my childhood and teenage years.. now my mind finally transforms back to its proper age. When one is sprouting nonsense and dwelling too much on nothing. When one can afford to day-dream and be ridiculous.

Ironic. Now that I'm left with barely half a year to before I leave the teens.

The initial idea of the entry was to explore the realm of Blame. About how it is so human to point your finger to another. Then being able to sleep at night with all that invisible guilt. But I seriously have no idea how it became all this. Like I said... too much drama.. Not in my life.. but people I know.

Welps, there's nothing much to update about my life. Except that I cut my hair.. and everybody hates my bangs. It's too short, I know.. but it will grow out and be okay.

I hate counting down.. But now, there's barely over 3 weeks left!

That 'lil twerp

2009-01-08T23:21:00.005+08:00

Deb (me): [singing along to the stereo] try to leave the light on when I'm gone~

Becky (said twerp): Waste electricity leh!

Then give me this kind of smile, after which..

Tsk!

You know, as irritating as she is. I don't think I can survive a week without my little sister.

This is all coming from the bottom of my heart...

The reality dawned on me while I was having my weekly emo-session earlier today.

If I'm already missing her after 2 days of absence/annoying the hell out of me (cause she's having this sec3 camp), how the heck am I going to make it down in Oz for 5 long months?!

She is a lot of things.. (oh, I can name a few.. damn annoying, immature and spoilt and annoying.. did I mention annoying?)

But her everything else outweighs whatever annoys me.

Every time I have sometime against the world, she patiently hears me out... while I continue to rant and rave and snap at everything around me.

When I'm upset and emo-ing, she's like one of the few people who would leave me be, and then bring it up after a while and ask about it. Cause she knows I need to release and talk about my issues.

I can only weep as freely and as hysterically as I like in front of her. I'm not ashamed to show her my weak side. But her only.

I may say that she's immature.. but, through her actions, she assures me every now and then that she's growing a litte, bit by bit, each day. And man, I was so touched when she told me about how I impacted her life! Of course I didn't show my true feelings, in front of her then. Still... I know she knows that I'm glad.

And she's like the only person I can totally let loose and be crazy around! Trust me... I can get preeetty insane. I bet she's the only one who will understand my state of mind (or lack thereof) and bear with all my weird-ness. Because she has those exact same moments and I bear with it. Sometimes we induce each other's moments.

Oh man! I'm so going to miss belting out Britney and Disney tunes with her! And and... dancing to Hot 'n Cold and Hairspray soundtracks... and bickering in our baby voices.. and talking for hours before we doze off, even though it might be muttering crazy crap and making up stupid stories and day-dreaming of our future.

I may claim that I cannot stand sleeping with her, cause she takes up 3/4 of the bed and her stuff always end up on my side and she'd be kicking throughout the night, but I really like how close we've become the past year, cause of that.

Becky Ng!

I'm so going to miss you. Like seriously. Cross my heart and hope to die.

But I know that my going away will do much good to her. I know that she'll be forced to grow up more rapidly. Hopefully, she grows in the right way.. become more sensible and less dependent on people.

How apt, this is. Exactly a month before it all begins.

Meh.