You know, as irritating as she is. I don't think I can survive a week without my little sister.
This is all coming from the bottom of my heart...
The reality dawned on me while I was having my weekly emo-session earlier today.
If I'm already missing her after 2 days of absence/annoying the hell out of me (cause she's having this sec3 camp), how the heck am I going to make it down in Oz for 5 long months?!
She is a lot of things.. (oh, I can name a few.. damn annoying, immature and spoilt and annoying.. did I mention annoying?)
But her everything else outweighs whatever annoys me.
Every time I have sometime against the world, she patiently hears me out... while I continue to rant and rave and snap at everything around me.
When I'm upset and emo-ing, she's like one of the few people who would leave me be, and then bring it up after a while and ask about it. Cause she knows I need to release and talk about my issues.
I can only weep as freely and as hysterically as I like in front of her. I'm not ashamed to show her my weak side. But her only.
I may say that she's immature.. but, through her actions, she assures me every now and then that she's growing a litte, bit by bit, each day. And man, I was so touched when she told me about how I impacted her life! Of course I didn't show my true feelings, in front of her then. Still... I know she knows that I'm glad.
And she's like the only person I can totally let loose and be crazy around! Trust me... I can get preeetty insane. I bet she's the only one who will understand my state of mind (or lack thereof) and bear with all my weird-ness. Because she has those exact same moments and I bear with it. Sometimes we induce each other's moments.
Oh man! I'm so going to miss belting out Britney and Disney tunes with her! And and... dancing to Hot 'n Cold and Hairspray soundtracks... and bickering in our baby voices.. and talking for hours before we doze off, even though it might be muttering crazy crap and making up stupid stories and day-dreaming of our future.
I may claim that I cannot stand sleeping with her, cause she takes up 3/4 of the bed and her stuff always end up on my side and she'd be kicking throughout the night, but I really like how close we've become the past year, cause of that.
Becky Ng!
I'm so going to miss you. Like seriously. Cross my heart and hope to die.
But I know that my going away will do much good to her. I know that she'll be forced to grow up more rapidly. Hopefully, she grows in the right way.. become more sensible and less dependent on people.
How apt, this is. Exactly a month before it all begins.
Meh.
Then give me this kind of smile, after which..