Had a bad day

I'm sorry, Qin, Jo and Jess.. I just couldn't help it..I couldn't stop feeling depressed and nothing you all said got into my head. I'm sorry for making you all worried and for spoiling the evening. Really, there's nothing much that anyone can do for me..the most is just being by my side an walking with me til this ends. I just pray that I can overcome this and that you all can tolerate me for a while more...

For the past few days, it seems like I'm void of emotions...what the heck, I didn' t even bawl my eyes out when adam sandler died la! It wasn't like this last week. I was still laughing and kidding around. Yeah, it was weird at that time to be so high..but I was. I can't even smile now! GRRRRR....!!!

This is so..what's the word? Demoralising? Draining? Depleting my brain cells?!!

I know what started it off..but now..I don't know what's there that's keeping me so...unhappy!

Oh my goodness...everything is crashing down on me now.

Okay..alright, maybe I should move on and not stay so darn pessimistic.. Click was great! Everyone should watch it!! I think my dad should catch it...Michael is the my reel life dad man..

Right. And oh...I must emphasize again that I'm super...lag..

See, I was about to refill my bottle..then I said to Qin who asked me to help her do something.. ,"Wait, I need to un-open my bottle.."

"okay..I'll wait"

Then she paused, I paused and looked at each other...

Me: Un-open is right what...why you look at me like that?

Qin: Un-open is close la!!

Me: No...un-open is...Un...oh yeah hor..

Qin and me: HAHAHAHAHAhahhahahahHHAHA!!! *guffaws like we're the only two people at the cooler when everyone was staring at us..*

I want you to hold me and tell me everything will turn out fine and that you'll always be with me....